" The other day I dream a very beautiful dream.

It was beautiful because all my love ones were in it.

Kyaa! I miss everyone!!! "

I've been stuffing myself with a lot of internet-surfing and watching TV. That's the only fun I can have at home. Being home for half of the year is getting me pretty depressed! And alone is such a boring word.

I started to hate weekend these days, because of the loudness. I'm getting used with all the silence...

I slept at 6 AM today. Great? NOT. But I kinda have a great stay-up activity. Movies that is. Hehe. Asim bought me a korean CD the other day (I choose it), the title is Don't Believe In Her. It was super awesome!! I burst into my laughter very early in the morning, if someone hear me he/she would've thought that I'm crazy or something. Haha!


I'd love to watch it for the second time!

And the other day I did the same thing as I did this early morning, taking my sleep at 6 AM that is, and I watched The Legend of Seven Cutter. This one is great too! I watched it on the net, and it took a very long time to load... The host is imeem, and imeem is really lagg with the videos.... But I'm pretty satisfied, siuk ceritanya! Inda rugi ku menunggu! I was suppose to wait until I meet Sha to watch this one, tapi inda ku sabar yo! Haha!


I watched Rainbow Romance too! Kim Ki Bum and Kim Hee Chul was there, so I don't want to miss it! I bet Juju will love this drama too, Lee Min Ki is there!! Hehe. This one is hillarious! Hehe. And a bit old actually.


I've got a lot of Korean drama that I really wanted to watch... I wonder when will this end.

And all these makes me feel so lifeless. I mean, aku ani nada keraja lain kah other than watching TV and surf the net?

I'm calling it a day!

There's so much things going on today.

I received a text message from DST yesterday in the late afternoon, and all the UBD applicants were asked to submit our certificates copies and also the printed HECAS application form. So I went to UBD today afternoon with my parents and Abang Azhar.

I was surprised that it didn't even take 2 minutes to get things done. Thanks to Zzah for that. She told me earlier that they need our IC and birth certificate copies. Ah, also the certified certificates. I don't really have much to show anyway, I'm very inactive in other activities. Lame me. Urgh.

We left Abang Azhar at FOS since he wanted to discuss something with his friend. He's staying there for a night. I thought he don't have to go to UBD anymore. Hehe.

Then, me and my parents went to Kiulap. Dad has things to be done, so while waiting, me and my mom pusing pusing. Hehe. After that, we went to the First Emporium. Woah. I haven't been there for years! I remember going there with Asim 3 years ago. Iakah? The place didn't change much, in fact there isn't any visible change (for me) pun. Haha.

We got home at around 5.30 PM. After finished cleaning up, I talked to Nunud while taking care of baby Amirah. Urgh, I missed seeing Asim today. You should have wait darling.

So tonight, the finale of American Idol. I already knew the result this morning. So it kinda spoiled my mood to watch it tonight. I should have keep myself away from the media today, but I can't help it. I'll be aware next year then, Insya Allah. Hehe. Kalau ada, that is.

Anyways, congratulation Kris Allen, the killer-smile guy. Haha! Who cares if Adam Lambert lost!? Who cares if he's gay? (I care! But, whatever!) Haha! Both were great anyway, and it was a tough competition... Both of them will definitely produce a popular album and succeed anyway! Right? Hehe.


Right after watching American Idol, I watched Mr. Goodbye on KBS 303. It's the final episode by the way. And it was dissatisfying. I don't mind sad ending, but left-hanging? Na-ah! I began to wonder what's going on actually at the end, and it keeps on bugging me! I hate curiosity!


I'm really looking froward for June, I think I can meet my friends by then. And and and, dad is planning to go to KK again! This is so cool! Don't you think so?

Off!

The title says it all. I was complaining how bored I am to Asim last night thus I told him to let us go on a date. I guess he knows how it feel, so he said yes without thinking much. After all, he's on his holiday too.

I woke up as soon as I received a text message from Asim saying that he'll fetch me any minute later. It was around 10. I was just waking up at that time. So I rushed to take my shower and dressed up, and I'm all done after 10 minutes or so.

We went to The Mall. Arrived there at 12 and we went to the cineplex to book Push tickets which show at 1.30 PM.

We're pretty hungry, KFC for lunch! Initially Asim wanted to eat at the food court... but too many food choices is ruining my appetite.. So to solve it... KFC tah saja!

Tell you what, this movie is awesome! I need to watch it for the second time I think, to fully understand it.

Went out at around 3 PM. And to my surprise, I met my dear friend, Tyma. She's now working at The Mall, just next to the cinema. Woah. Lucky girl she is. Tahan berkeraja yoh. Bukan macam aku. Haha.

Pusing pusing, and arrived home at 5 PM.

My night? As usual... Korea-ing.

It was quite a simple day but really, no 'boring' word came across my mind today. And it feels good! Hehe.

Okay then, Assalammualaikum. Sleep tight~

I wanted to keep this blog updated daily, but I guess it can't be help. I was pretty much staying home, doing particularly nothing important and interesting. Then again, it was buring!

I'm currently in the so-called study room (it's looks more like a sleeping room now). My room was quite messy, so I don't really want to stay there. But it turned out that this room is becoming messy too. And it was suppose to be my duty to clean up these two rooms. Urgh. Okay, okay. I promise I'll clean it up tomorrow. Deal? Hehe.

So that makes my tomorrow to-do list! Waking up early and cleaning!

I completely forgot to watch American Idol last Wednesday. They're performing that day, and hell, I miss it! I still don't know how the three of them are doing and I don't know when will they air the repeat show.

Anyway, congratulation Adam Lambert (L) and Kris Allen for being on the final!

Okay, that was so random. I'm idea-less. Lemme be random, kay?

Abang Azhar will be home tomorrow! He finished his TP, but unfortunately, something came up and he have to continue his TP for another month at SMSO. But the good news is, he'll be home! I can talk to him every single day now! Hehe.

Tomorrow too, Asim started his holiday. For 15 days. But I doubt that we are going to see each other. Something came up.... Urgh. He told me earlier that he'll be going to Limbang for his holiday... so yeah. I hope you'll have fun love.

I enjoyed listening to Korean songs these days. Check out my current playlist;
1. K.Will - Teardrop.
2. 8eight - Heartless.
3. 2 AM - A Friend's Confession.
4. AJ - Dancing Shoes.
5. Victory - Strong Baby.
6. Taegoon - Call Me.
7. Davinchi - 8282.
8. F.T Island - Bad Women.
9. Fly To The Sky - Restriction.
10. J. Walk - Shout For Love.
11. Kara - Honey.
12. Kim Hyun Joong - Thank You.
13. Im Chang Jung - It's Been A While.
14. Shin Hye Sung - Why Did You Call.
15. Girl's Generation - Gee.
16. U-Kiss - Talk To Me.
17. Wheesung - Insomnia.
18. Big Bang - Day By Day.
19. SS501 - Find.
20. 2 PM - Again & Again.
21. Brand New Day - I Can Live.
22. Super Junior - It's You.

I don't really listen to Super Junior. Their song was great, really. But I'm afraid that I might get bored, so I'll only listen to them once in a while.

And and and, I am happy to announce that SuJu has a new single, It's You! KiBummie was there too in their MV, and it was... Dazzling? Breathtaking? Hehe!

I think I'm done. Lastly, my baby's face when she's sleeping! Hehe. She's in my arm btw, in this picture.


Assalammualaikum!

It was so sweet of you dear. I was suppose to be the one who's visiting you. But you visiting me? Uh-huh. It makes me feel guilty, but hey, looking in the bright side, I am actually happy for that!

Oh man, am I really being unprogressive all day long? Uh-huh, I did. I feel sorry to myself, big time!

My Sunday morning was... I don't know. Somebody kept on knocking my door (certainly because I'm locking it every single night) so hard that it hurts my head. I walked a lazy walk from my bed to the door, switched on the lights, unlocked the door and slammed the door wide open. Not long after that, I was on my bed again, sullen being interrupted.

A loud noise from our living room's TV made me feel even more irritated. Urgh.

But nobody came in. Again, I walked halfheartedly to do door, this time slamming the door closed and switched off the lights. I haven't get enough of sleep, so yeah. It was 10 in Sunday morning, hence the waking-up-alarm-by-parents.

I heard mom mumbled something about me, but I decided that I shouldn't be concern. I'm still too sleepy too think.

Not long after that, mom came in, nagging me to wake up and accompany her to some wedding event. I ignored, saying that I'm not in the 'mood'. She said it will only take a while, but still...

It's just that, I can't take him off of my mind. The worriment has not worn out yet.

My day isn't getting any better. At noon, the electricity was being cut off for many minutes or maybe up to hour - which I didn't really count, simply because of the hotness. Urgh. I did some reading while waiting for the electricity to come back, leaning comfortably on the long chair in our secondary living room, allowing the wind to blow to me through the wide-opened door. Hehe. Menyanang!

Then I spend my long afternoon, taking a nap. Of 5 hours. OH. MY. GOD. What is wrong with me?

Memet was here as usual, and I spent my night working on my mom's work and internet surfing. Had a conversation with Sha on MSN, but because of the stupid wireless connection here, we stopped without saying goodbye. Urgh. I miss my dear friends.

I miss my friends.
I miss my friends so much.
I really miss my friends.
Sometimes I miss them too much that I don't think I can tolerate.

Asim too, I miss him so bad.

What a long post. It might bored you, and if it is so, forgive me. Off then. Assalammualaikum.

It seems that I am having such a bad luck this week. It's not that I am a trouble-maker or anything, but every bad thing is surrounding me just within this whole week. The temporary break down I am having, the stomachache, me ruining his birthday mood, the very personal family problem, and the list goes on and on. Today, too, I have a bad news.

Asim fell down and hurt his legs. Maybe it's broken. Urgh. I hate just to think it that way.

It's driving me insane right now. I can't even think straight. My mind is definitely on him, right at this moment. I am worrying about him like hell, wishing that I could be there. Again, I feel hopeless, and I am very disappointed with myself. I can't think of a way to calm him down. I am so sorry about that love.

I can't think of anything to finish off this post.

Goodbye then.

Yes, it's my lazy day today. My period started today, so that's why. That explain the strange feeling on my stomach last night.

I spent most of my time on my bed, working on my laptop next to me of course. The stomachache weaken me and I didn't find food appetizing. It felt like I need to puke when I sees food. Urgh. This hormone thingy is really driving me nuts!

Mom almost scold me when I didn't perform my prayer but as soon as told her that I'm on my 'holiday', she left without saying anything. Come on! I'm not that lazy kali ah. Sembahyang is a must!

I don't bother to go online on MSN today. I did pulang, but just for a while. It didn't even reach 5 minutes, I think. I figure out that Asim might be kecarian. Hehe. So yeah.

Watching TV made my day. I do not know why. Hehe.

Off!

It's one of the most difficult night that I have to go through last night.

Betty texted me two days ago I think, and she told me that some of our friends was already being interviewed with UBD. Surprised, I check the UBD website but found nothing at all about the interview. I calm her down, saying that maybe our turn will come soon.

But last night, I asked Zaim in person, and he told me that it was true. He finished his interview with UBD. What does that make me then? Am I rejected? I am not accepted by UBD?

There goes my break down. I cried my eyes out! I feel hopeless, rejected, idiot, you name it!

I texted Juju about it. This time, she calm me, saying that our turn will come soon, Insya Allah. I have to believe it, there's really nothing left to do. Suddenly, I can feel some kind of hope. Thanks to her, I was able to smile again. Thanks Juju.

I have to apologize to Zaim then. I ignored him after having that conversation. It seems that he want to make me feel better, but I disregard his kindness. I am sorry for that dude. Well, when it comes to making me feel better, the one person that will do best at it ought to be Asim. Hehe. He is the one person that I wanted to talk to about my problem. But it didn't work well last night.

That was what the title of this post all about. Thank God it was just temporary.

I still feel kinda worry though. What if its true that I'm rejected? I'm going to face each and every day with regret then. It will be frustrating. Urgh. I don't want to think about it for now.

As for today, I have nothing new to share. Same-old, same-old. Boring, thats the best word to describe my life today.

Off. Assalammualaikum.

Happy Birthday, my love.


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I am so sorry that I ruin your day, dear.



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REJECTED, am I?

In today's folder;




I am so lazy to update these days. But I don't want to leave this blog dusty.

Today, I started my day with cooking!! Hehe. Then... tidak lain dan tidak bukan! Internet surfing~

At noon, our home phone rang. It almost annoy me. If it weren't from Asim, I would've be annoyed. Hehe. The phone rang several time today morning, so it explain why I'm annoyed, right.

Bad news... We can't see each other today. Not his fault though, his mother fell down in the bathroom. He asked for his forgiveness, but hey, I won't be mad with such unavoidable reason. I actually can feel this one coming. Last night, I had this stupid thought, that Asim won't be able to come and see me today. Well, it come true!

At around 3, I went to fetch my two brothers from school. I was being awkward on the road, experimenting here and there. Haha. My parents went to Bandar so it was my duty to fetch the boys.

Hm.. I just realize that I don't have enough sleep. That explain why I am so sleepy this afternoon. I didn't even follow the rule; No sleeping after Asar. I took my nap at 5, and wake up a hour later. It was dizzying. I can't even think straight. I shouldn't have do that. SHRUG!

I watched MB right after performing Magrib prayer, and I was annoyed with the fact that Son Dambi's song, Saturday Night, was stuck in my head. I can't even figure out why, I guess it must have been catchy. I have to tune in some other song to remove the Saturday Night song out of my mind. Hehe. The reason is simply because that song beats SJ's Sorry Sorry for two consecutive weeks!

Boys Over Flower makes me cry tonight, and Mr. Goodbye was intimidating! Hehe. I get to watch SJ on both MB and Entertainment Weekly. It's driving me crazy!!! Hehe.

Tonight's weather is really something. It's scaring me actually.

Off to bed then. Assalammualaikum!

I am being an ignorance. I have to admit it. Oh, damn!

Nothing unusual is happening to my life today. I stayed at home, eat my lunch, surf the net, watching TV, reading novels, stalking the baby, eat my dinner, going to the toilet, going online, a conversation with Asim, bla-de-bla-bla. Nothing weird at all.

Only that Memet came and accompany me. And she's loud as usual.

I better cut the crap. This nonsense won't bring me anywhere.

Oh yes. Oh yes!

And again, today is the the opposite of yesterday. I'm being so lazy yesterday, but today I made an effort!! Did some cleaning here and there, and I helped mom with her work. I'm her temporary assistant, remember? I'm giving her a free-of-charge service here. Hehe.

I have no idea why I am so sleepy in the afternoon.

Akademi Fantasia is really something to look for tonight.

And again, countdown...

Asim celebrated his advance birthday and his brother-in-law belated birthday today with his family. I was pretty surprise. He was suppose to work until tomorrow morning, but then he send me two pictures of him and his cake. I was like, eh, Asim inda keraja kah? When I asked him about it, he said that he already told me that he's going to take off early from work. But I didn't even have the memory of that. Kyaaa!

Happy May peeps!

Today is the total opposite of yesterday. In term of the weather pulang saja tu. Hehe. Yesterday was such a hot day, I started craving for ice cream and I am keeping myself in my room with the air-conditioner. Hehe.

I'm bored out of mind. I being hopeless, all day long.

What I write in this blog 2 months ago didn't even reflect what I did today.

Oh. Countdown!!!

Off.