I woke up pretty early, at 5:30 AM. But I get back to my sleep 10 minutes after waking up. 4 hours of sleep won't do me any good.

Oh. Countdown...

Today's outing was canceled rather than postponed. The others seems busy preparing for their exam which is just about 2 weeks away from today and some packed with full schedule (hehe). So I won't complain. I fully understand their situation. But I'm feeling a wee bit lonely. Hehe. Okay that's a lie. I'm very very lonely. Looking forward for it after they finish their exam then.

Asim is acting all weird tonight. He's being very penyamal-ish. Hehe. He told me that he missed me soooooooooooooo much, and that he wanted to do video calling. But then he changed his mind. Instead, he wanted me to send some pictures of mine. However I refused and that made him jadi menyamal tah pulang. Hehe. We're on the phone at that time, and I'm actually watching KBS. I can't really concentrate at what he's saying as my concentration was on the TV too.

After we hang up the phone with a sort-of-sad-ending, I continue watching KBS. Hehe. Pretty ignorance eh? But of course I felt uneasy lah! After finished watching TV which is about 10-20 minutes after we hang up the phone, I took some pictures of mine and sent it to him. How could I refuse his request when he's being so penyamal, manja and all of those lovey-dovey things? Hehe.

Just a week away from Asim's birthday. So I think I should start my countdown. Hehe.


Other than doing all those usual stuff - eat, sit, stand, breathe, going to the toilet, blink, bla-de-bla-bla - I'm stuffing my face in front of my laptop and TV. I did that 90% of the time. Haha.

I'm getting lazier and lazier everyday. And chubbier, I think.

Off.

P/S; Asim jadi chipsmore eh hari ani. Sekajap ada, sekajap nada. My life would be a lot more easier with you by my side dear. I am really waiting for that day to come.

Chapter 18: There is no words for this of Breaking Dawn send me a thrilled feeling last night. And because of that, I keep on reading, excited to know what happens next. I was up until around 2 am.

Unfortunately, I woke up pretty late too. 9 AM. I heard Amirah's scream as soon as I'm awake. She's lonely I guess. Hehe. I'm not in a good mood to babysit her though.

No CDs/VCDs caught my attention, so I watched Snow Flower again, to kill my boredom.

Oh well, you could probably tell that I'm having such a boring day. I shouldn't have describe more I think. Hehe.

Off then.

Funny that Asim was complaining how bad his leg hurts but still he went for playing football. It is so you dear. Hehe. Take care then. I love you, always.

I don't feel like taking my evening-shower tonight. I've been staying in my room the whole day long, and my room was with air-condition of course. Then why would I have to take my shower when I didn't even sweat or smell bad? It was just an excuse though, hehe. Saya malas, in other words.

I spent all my time with laptop. When the connection was poor, I watch some anime. And when the connection was good again, I went online and open up my facebook account. I watched Snow Flower too, as KiBummie's irresistible. I'm such a spoiled kid. *Sigh*

I'm pretty lonely, but in a good way. I feel rather comfortable and peaceful. Yesterday was loud that it really got my nerves. I'll just have to play some music and sing out loud when it is getting boring. Just like Asim and me did when we're in the car. I miss you so much dear. Hardly wait for next week!

And I'll be spending my night watching KBS. Hehe.

Tomorrow will be another looooooooooooooooooooooong day.

Off. Assalammualaikum.

I'm being unreasonably not in a good mood. This temper of mine... Urgh!

I'm not in my mood to update either. I'll keep it simple then.

Abang Azhar left for UBD again.
I hate it when it happens, all the time.

I am sick of taking care of some ridiculous kid. Why can't they act nicely?

Better off then. Assalammualaikum!

I will never get bored listening to = Super Junior!! Hehe.

This made me burst into laughter! Haha! Especially the part when they almost kiss each other!!!!! LOL!!!

Translation: Safe energy, safe earth.

Siwon still looks manly. Hehe. Yesung was being very funny and adorable. EunHyukie is again a total hottie. DongHae looked dazzling and great. Okay okay, everyone of them was being great. No doubt at all. *Giggles!


I tried calling MOE but to no avail. Urgh! I should've call earlier. *Sigh.

I am back! With a brand new skin. Hehe.

It feels good to be back!

******

The beach!

I am currently watching over baby Amirah. She looks good in pink by the way. Hehe. Macam tangahnya! LOL!


I'll be going to MOE later. Maybe. And I don't know what to expect. I'd given it up many days ago, so I'm not looking forward for it. Umm.. I don't know what else to say.

Oh yea, I'd like to dedicate a birthday wishes to one of my bestie, Agnaes! I hope you're enjoying your day today dearest. Will meet you soon with the others, Insya Allah. Good luck for the upcoming June A Level, and I hope this friendship stays forever. Amin.

Urgh! I can't seems to find a proper picture of us. Curse the nonsense-laptop-problem I had last few weeks, it makes me lost everything I have in there!

Will write more soon!


Canceled. We'll be going to MOE this Saturday! Bullshit! And our hangout have to be postpone to next week. I'm sorry guys. You can blame me on this.

I am so in the good mood, because I'll be seeing him later.

Whenever he told me that he's coming over after a long period of time, I'll be in a very good mood and I won't hesitate for doing house chores.

Less than 2 hours to go! I love you Asim!




I think I'll go crazy tomorrow. I will want to see him again, I don't have any doubt of it. *Sigh. I miss you already dear, will meet you again after 2 weeks. Insya Allah.

Okay then. Assalammualaikum!

I'm closing my blog for a while. I don't really have a purpose for it actually, I just feel like doing it. I won't take long though, probably less than a week.

Nothing unusual is happening today. I'm doing a lot of TV-watching, internet surfing, music-listening and also book-reading. Hehe. I'd have to admit that I'm bored, I'm all alone... Except at night, it was loud.

I just came to realize that I love EunHyukie of SuJu. He's so cute, adorable and he looked innocent. His dance is totally hot and awesome! He's now my second favourite guy in SuJu. The first one will always be KiBumie! Hehe.



I'm currently watching Snow Flower. I'm keeping it slow though, an episode per day. Hehe. KiBumie was in there, I can't miss it!

Off.

I am so stuck at home. I really need to do something, but to no avail. No one could help me, everybody seems so busy. Urgh. I am hopeless.

Looking forward for this week's hangout. I hope it will work out just fine. Just a simple and plain hangout though, I hope my parents will approve it. Approve me for using the car, I mean.

If nothing works out fine I'll have to blame myself.

Kyaaaa! Somebody's getting on my nerve!!!

Instead of being sleepless, I'm going through the opposite of it - overslept. LOL. I woke up at 9 AM after falling asleep at around 12 last night.

As usual, Memet was here with her mom, before I awake. What a shame! A kid wake up earlier than an adult-to-be. Gah! She's not well, she got chickenpox. She was not suppose to be here I think, she might got the baby infected too. So I told her not to get near the baby or touch her. I hope I'm not being mean. *Grin.


She left without saying goodbye since I dazed off when she's playing some games with my laptop. Anyway, get well soon dear!

Off. Will write more soon. Assalammualaikum!


Arrived home at 6 PM and I'm showered with sweat. Urgh! Good for me though. Hehe.

To begin with, I'm not in my best mood. I feel humanly stupid!

I woke up at 6AM since mom told me last night that both of us will go to the hospital again to bring baby Amirah to her mom. After waking up, as usual I took my shower and did my daily things. I dressed up accordingly, and went out of room.... and I find out that my mom is already gone.

What kind of human that won't feel angry about it?

But of course I don't want to be rude and blame my parents. It makes me a bad child I guess. But the anger builded within me. There's nobody to be mad of, and I started to blame myself! Urgh. I cleaned my room to make the anger go away, but I ended up cursing everything that get through my way. I've said the word 'stupid' in my mind so many times today, countless.

The wireless connection is acting very stupidly too.

Getting something to eat and some sleep ease my anger. Hehe.

I got another phone call from MOE. They still want me to fill up the form even though I don't have any UK University that meet my requirement. I don't know why. I've already given up with this scholarship, so now... should I really fill up the form? Anyone?

I feel ridiculously stupid again now that I wake up. *Sigh.

And that there's another stupid phone call through my mobile phone but I didn't manage to answer it. It woke me up, and its irritating me!

I'm having such a stupid headache. Urgh.

What a day! Won't today going to be any better?

The good news is that, my sister will be home later. What a relief!

Okay I'm better off now. Assalammualaikum.


-{ '2:39 PM.

My feeling? =

I was planning to stay at the hospital until night. But it was canceled cause Amirah started crying out loud. I think it was loud in the hospital that she hardly take her nap. So dad fetched me at 5 PM, and as expected, she fall asleep in the car on our way back home.



Got another visitor today, and it was Babu Jun and Echa's mom. Hehe. Thanks for visiting! *Giggle.

I think Sha will love it here. I mean, she will have a good time taking pictures there at the hospital. Hehe. I am so lazy to take any picture. I figure out I won't put any of them in here, because of the quality of course.

Sure, sure. My body hurts. Like hell.

I MISS YOU SO BAD ASIM!!!!!!!!!!!! It will be great to see you in my dream tonight. I wish.

Speechlessness. Off.

******

I stayed until 4 PM. I did take my nap there, and some reading too. Hehe. I was reading Eclipse, and I'm going to finish soon. In a week, perhaps. Hehe.

I can feel my body aching. My arms especially.

That night, my mom took my duty and bring baby Amirah to the hospital to get her feed. Again.

I'm actually feel bad for mom. She hurts herself at school today, I think she's all tired and unexpectedly fall down while walking. She's okay though, she only hurt her legs. And she can walk. Hehe.

Dad was tired too. He complained about having a headache. He have been driving me and mom back and forth to the hospital. And they're having a sport day somewhere at Tutong today too.



My occupied schedule half of the day makes me unaware of me missing Asim. But at night, my head and heart began to scream for him. It was crazy love, I am really going crazy.

I miss you, boo.

******

Mom had to take a day off from school because she was worried with the baby. And she's going to visit sister in the hospital and buy some stuff. I guess the baby is my responsible now.

But I ended up not taking care of her. I mean, she didn't want me. Every time I hold her, she cried her eyes out! And screamed so loud! The maid came for a rescue, always, as she's a pro.

I went to bed at 5 AM last night, right after doing my Subuh prayer. I don't know what's wrong with me, I just can't sleep. I just have a lot in my mind! When the baby falls into her sleep in the noon, I did some reading and ended up sleeping. It was 12.30 and I was waiting for my brothers to come home from school so that I can have my lunch with them. Having lunch alone is the least thing I wanted to do, every single day. Sadly, my sleep dragged until 3 PM. *Sigh.

I am hopeless. Urgh.

Sister's getting better now, and she can feed the baby. So later that night, mom told me to bring baby Amirah to the hospital so that my sister could feed her. The baby is crying so hard that it makes me feel stupid for being angry. I mean, she's just a baby, she didn't know anything, and she's not the one to take the blame. I have to bear with my stupid feeling, and to my luck, she fall asleep in my arm. And that feels good... Hehe.

Echa's family came for a visit at the hospital that night. Hehe. The two sisters told me that I'm getting chubbier. So my Monday's post is not just my imagination, IT WAS TRUE!!!

Arrived home at 10 PM and again, baby Amirah fall asleep in my arm. Hehe.

I'm so glad I didn't miss my favourite korean drama. Haha! I miss watching American Idol though. *Sigh.

Asim's always in my mind today. It's driving me crazy! Meet me soon, darling?

Off.

I hate to admit this, but I'm going through it again - the sleepless night.

P/S; Remembering that man's name gave me a goosebumps! Seriously!


Today is hectic! I can't even get enough sleep.

Get well soon, my love.
Get well soon, sister.
Stop crying baby. It hurts to see you crying.



I have to accompany my brother and sister to the hospital to get my sister's medicine in the morning. She's in a sort-of-paralyze state. She can move of course, but hardly.

Went back home at noon and my sister's condition is getting worse. She can't stand on her own feet. Me and the maid have to help her stand and move to get her to her room.

Baby Amirah is crying like crazy that morning. It's like she knew something's wrong with her mother.

Since I was sleepless last night, I went to my bedroom to get some sleep, and I left it unlocked. When I woke up, baby Amirah was right there beside me, sleeping. I remembered hearing some noise outside my room but I ignored it and get back to my sleep.

After Asar, me and my parents hurried to Tutong Hospital. So it was the ambulance-person who made the noise outside my room when I was half awake. My sister needs to be hospitalize, since she puked a lot, she can't stand on her own feet, she was hard to be heard, and the worst - she can't feed the baby.

The baby needs to be feed but with such condition... Urgh. It's a huge mess. She was being hard and we all were tired of it.

We get through the night though. Hee.

And I was having such a stupid headache for not having enough sleep.

Asim's not feeling well too. He told me he got off from work early today. Rest well, dear love.

I look chubbier! Urgh!
This chubbiness have got to stop!
Please?

I don't really have anything to say.


Today... I went to Bukit Beruang with my parents since there's Majlis Aqiqah and tahlil for one of my cousin's newborn baby. Not really a newborn though, she's more like baby Amirah, 4-5 months old. Unluckily it was raining but it wasn't heavy. On our way back to the car after the event finished, I said "Inda kuat labatnya hujan ani," And mom told me that I said it in a strange way and that I was suppose to say, "Inda labat hujan," LOL!

Seeing Bukit Beruang reminds me of school. And my two very best friend. I feel like dropping by tadi, but I guess I'll just have to wait. Hehe. And of course, it reminded me a lot about Asim too.

Went back home at 4 and since I'm totally jobless, I watched BOF with Adik Asri. He downloaded it himself without me asking him to. Hehe. I was watching episode one and two though, since I missed the earlier episodes.

Spent my night watching another korean drama When It's At Night. It shows on RTB2 btw.

I can't believe I dazed off in the middle of the room while I'm watching over baby Amirah. The room was so loud yet I managed to take a short nap. What does it makes me? I guess I'm just tired.

Better off now. Hardly wait for tomorrow! Hehe! Assalammualaikum!

Okay, so I ended up having something to say.

I deleted my Plurk account just now. It's funny that I told Zzah not to delete hers, but me myself deleted it. Haha.

Why? Simply because I'm bored with it.

Off for now.

I just realized that the DVD that I bought last time when I went out with Asim is not a Korean movie. Instead, it's Japanese. Haha. But I'm glad that the movie turn out to be interesting. The title is Christmas on July 24th Avenue. I watched it just now, and two thumbs up!


Since I'm up to totally nothing today, I shall write something more about CDs.

I bought 4 DVDs (I think) last February, and believe me, I haven't finish watching all of them. Haha. They're Yes Man, Bride Wars, Beverly Hills Chihuahua, and Bedtime Stories. Not to forget, Asim lend me some of his CDs to me when I just finished my 'A' Level Exam, and still, I haven't finish watching them. Hehe. I believe I'd listed them on my November's post. To make the matter worst, Abang Juan borrow me some of his CDs too. And Abang Azhar bought me some anime! Boh!

However, I still bought some new one. And the unwatched movies are now piling up!

The reason for me not watching them is because... My mind is stuffed with books, laptop and TV. Haha. I will only watch them on desperate measures!

I think I should stop now. Assalammualaikum!

Yup. Changed my blog skin. I don't want to change everything, because I just love this template. So I edited some of it; the header and the sidebar. I'm loving it!

I'm finally using my laptop. And now I'm worried if I am to lose it again. *Sigh!

PMS's attacking! Which explained why there's a lot of zit on my face lately. I'm sure it's not because of me going to bed late at night.

Will write more soon. Assalammualaikum.

2 PM ---

Dad just got home with my two younger brothers. Me and my dad talk through the window, because at that time I was in the kitchen and dad was in the car garage. Hehe. He told me that my laptop is finally 'baik' and Abang Juan is going to get it later.

But I wasn't happy at all.

4 PM ---

I was on the phone with Asim when suddenly Adik Ayep gave me his cell phone. It was Abang Juan and he called to get my laptop's password, of which I'd forgotten!! I mean, HELLO! I'D ONLY SPEND 4 DAYS WITH IT AND PROTECT IT WITH A PASSWORD! THEN I'D LOST IT AGAIN FOR WEEKS! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO REMEMBER IT AFTER A SORT-OF-LONG PERIOD OF TIME!!? But of course in the end I managed to remember it. Lame, no?

And when I'm done with Asim, I checked my mobile phone and got a lot of missed calls from Abang Juan. Okay, that explained why he's calling on Adik Ayep's phone.

5 PM ---

I got my laptop with me! Which I haven't switch it on yet. Because I'm kinda traumatise with it's internal-broken-down. I swear I'm not going to touch it again if I ever lost it again.

Almost 8 PM ---

Haven't even touch my laptop yet. Should I?

I think I should recite some surah to it, so that it'll be fine for... eternity?

SHOULD I???!!

I AM SO GLAD I WOKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING TODAY! And switched on the TV. Because I get to watched SuJu's Sorry Sorry MV on MTV! Not that I've never watched it before, but it's not the same when I'm watching them via the YouTube. Hehe. It looks way clearer on TV. Looking forward for another watching-SuJu-on-TV moment! Hehe.

Off for now. Will write more later. I think I'm going to head for bed now. 4 hours of sleep last night is not enough!

P/S; Have a nice rest baby! It's the sixth today, hoping that our relationship stays the same until the very end!


-{ 11:45 PM.

I spent my night watching some more korean drama on TV. Who Are You, then Boys Before Flowers and lastly A Love To Kill. I helped mom did some marking too, and managed to finish before 12. Hehe. It's almost Tuesday now btw.

Dinner was great today. All of the siblings gathered, excluding Abang Azhar of course. It's been quite a long time since all of us get together. The older brothers have been busy with their own lives. And I hate that fact.

Off now. Mom told me to wake up early tomorrow to help doing some cooking! Which is so not me. Haha!

P/S; Echa, tell me about it soon baby!

Despite not having any interesting story to share today, I don't want to abandon this blog. So here's a short update.

She did that all by herself! Hehe. She's getting naughtier! And loud! And and heavy! Can't wait to see you grow up baby girl.

P/S; It sure is messy in this so-called study room. So just ignore it alright? I've been stuck-ing myself in this room and deserted my very own room. Hehe!
P/P/S; I miss you again, love.