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It's okay.
Date: Saturday, February 28, 2009


"Don't know what you're doing to me with your love." - Superhuman by Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson.

It's okay dear. There's always tomorrow, lets just wait for the right time. I'm not going to be upset or mad. Um.. okay I'm a little sad but it's okay. Betul. Hehe. And I just don't wanna cry over silly reason. Have a nice day love. I love you too.

******

I'm so happy mappy yippy!

Before I explain why, lemme tell you what I've been doing in the morning.

My mood boost as soon as I remembered Asim will be coming later. What I did first is forced myself waking up earlier. Hehe. Then before taking my bath, I cleaned my room and organized my things. It's quite messy before, and now it's super shiny (Okay, I'm just exaggerating). After showering, I cleaned my bathroom! Again, it's very shiny! Haha.

After finished cleaning, I took my breakfast which I made myself. I don't know what it is called, I think it's pancake. Kinda. With bread, planta and eggs in it. What do you call it? So anyways, after filling my empty stomach, I did my mom's works. Her works are pilling up!

Soon after that, Asim texted me via MSN and told me that he got some stuff to do in the afternoon and that he wanted to come earlier. I said no, and told him that we'll meet some other time saja. I'm doing that because I don't want him to be in hurry. As a girlfriend, I think it's my responsible to understand. My chest hurt so much when I type that line. It hurts so much. I avoided the conversation by signing out and it dissapoint me that he didn't even contact me.

Until...

4 PM and the bell rang. It was Asim! He's late of course, but he really got stuff to do. I'm so happy to see him. He's sweating a lot. The sweet thing is that, he bought me Kebab. I thought he'll be forgetting about it. So we enjoy our short meal together, talking and laughing like there's no tomorrow, and took a lot of pictures. Hehe.

Here's some of it...


I really like the way he stare in my eyes today, it's like he never see it before. You know, it's like that moment was our first meet. Hehe. Jiwang bah.

That was it. I think I'm falling in love again, with the same guy, over and over again. I'm never tired of it sweety. Betul.

Oh what a long post. I better off then. Nyaman tidurku malam ani ni! Hehe.


American Idol Group 2.
Date: Friday, February 27, 2009


Adam Lambert made it to the top 12!!!



I love the three of them too!

******

Went to UBD with parents to send Abang Azhar back to hostel. I miss him already. I can't wait for the school break, he'll be home by then! I've got a lot to talk with him! Hehe.


Good luck again for your TP bro.

Later that day, shopping at Tutong! I got the chance to buy some stuff. Hehe. Terima sudah kali ah!

P/S; Laptopku mana??!


Coolness.
Date: Wednesday, February 25, 2009


Woke up pretty late again today, but it's much better than yesterday.

I've been missing Super Junior a lot, I haven't heard anything about them this year. Their latest news (might not be that latest though) is that their latest album will be released this upcoming March. I can't wait for that of course! I'm one of their fans too! And I did a little youtube-ing just now and I got this. I'm not quite sure weather it's something new. Lemme show it okay;



Clap clap for them! I didn't recognize one of them. Eun Hyukie, Shin Dong and I think the other one is Sung Min. Was it Lee Teuk? Hm.. Siapa kan tu lagi seorang ah? Inda clear mukanya.

Anyways, their dance is so cool! It's powerful, energetic, their moves are totally creative and amazing. They're totally hot! Awesomeness! Hehe lets stop about that. *Slap myself.

Last night I watched Boys Over Flowers on Channel 303. Bunch of cute and pretty boys! Hehe. I think it's the Korean Version of F4. I think so. Correct me if I'm wrong.

I'm going to Sha's place later if keadaan mengizinkan. Hehe. I'm missing both of them so much ba! Let's see about that...

Asim... he'll be off to Bandar again today. Ada hal katanya. So baby, have a nice day! I miss you so much!

I guess that's it. I'm off to take my shower. Assalammualaikum!

******

-{ '11:57 PM.

Finally!


I have tons of fun babe! Thanks for the great day. I wish to stay longer, inda pandai puas ni mun sama durang ni. I missed both of you already.

And of course, I miss you more Asim. Hehe.


Sleeping disorder.
Date: Tuesday, February 24, 2009


I woke up late today. It's shameful to let others know what time I woke up. So I'll keep it myself okay? Hehe. I'm back with those sleeping disorder. *Sigh!

Anyways, yesterday Memet came over my place at around 2 PM. She brought her laptop too and at the end of the day when her dad fetched her and her mom, she said, "Aku tingalkan laptop di sini saja ka ah. Laptop kaka masih rusak, kesian kaka nada laptop." And I was like... HAPPY! Hehe. And I'm using her laptop now. Her mother approved it because she said this laptop is distracting Memet from her studies. So thanks babyku. I love you!

I was having a conversation with Asim at around 2 just now. He told me that he wanted to come, but then he felt tired. 24 hours of working yesterday sure makes him exausted. I don't want to drag him here either with that condition. I'll end up inda kana layan pulang tu, for sure. Hehe. And there's this conversation;

Asim: "Lama udah Asim inda masuk blog Fizah."
Me: "Asim inda masuk iatah Fizah inda update."
Asim: "Bila update nada pasal Asim pun."
Me: "Cana kan cakap pasal Asim mun Asim inda kemari, nada kan dicerita pasal Asim pun."

The result is... 2 - 0. I won! Haha!

So, I won't be able to meet him by this week. He got other important stuff to do I guess. And he told me that we'll be going out next week. And I was like... MAUUUUU! Hehe. But he didn't promise as... you know, he's a busy guy. I shoudn't put too high expectation on him too, cause if he didn't make it I'll end up hurting myself. So guys please keep your fingers crossed for me! Hehe.

Last night, Sha asked me come over her house today, if I can. I can't today dearest, ketinggalan tadi ah. Hehe. I'll come over some other day, with Juju okay? I miss you girls! *Sobbing.

I want to change my blogskin, because it seems that everyone did. So I want a new one too. More, the rain has stopped this days so I better think of other theme. Let's see about that.

There it goes, an update. And that's it for today. Assalammualaikum.

******

-{' 6:17 PM.

Yup, I changed my blogskin.

Goodbye!


And hello!


******

-{' 9:08 PM.

The three of them made it to the top 12. I love the three of them! I just can't wait for tomorrow. And I hope Adam Lambert made it through.




I hope to get to bed early today. So goodbye.


25th
Date: Monday, February 23, 2009



Selamat Hari Kebangsaan yang ke-25, dengan bertemakan Kedewasaan Bernegara.

Allah selamatkan Brunei!


LFC!
Date: Sunday, February 22, 2009


Asim is having a football match today. And thats the reason I'm wearing this t-shirt. I'm cheering for you dear love! Hehe.


22nd February; Happy Birthday Abang Alfie! And Happy 2nd Year Anniversary Tyma! Hehe.


A picture, finally!
Date: Friday, February 20, 2009


I'm back peeps! But of course my laptop is still haven't recover. Dad said that it will be okay next week. Amin. I really need it to fill in this boredom.

This picture was taken just now. And I edited it with Paint.NET v3.36. I prefer using Photoshop though, but there's no Photoshop in this family computer I'm using right now. The reason I edited this photo was because my face look rather terrible, and editing it means hiding the defected part. Hehe.

A little while ago, a spider entered this room. It is the insect that I fear most... Ergh! I called my lil brother and asked him to kill it for me. I didn't mean to kill him, but I was afraid of living spider. It looks even scary even though it's dead too. Huhu.

Oh btw, I found the memory card reader in Abang Azuan's room. I don't actually found it, it was my lil brother who found it. Which means, I can post pictures now without my laptop! Hurrah!

I will have to leave now. Assalammualaikum.

P/S; I hope to see you tomorrow love!


Fever, perhaps?
Date: Thursday, February 19, 2009


I'm not feeling well right now. It feels like I'm going to puke anytime at this moment.

I'll have my nap later and lets see if I get better.

Come on, I don't need you fever.


Superhuman
Date: Wednesday, February 18, 2009


It seems that my dad had made his mind about my laptop. The guy who checked my laptop in Kiulap last few weeks offered me to trade it in. I don't know, but I think my dad is considering it and will buy me a new one. Maybe. It cost too much to get it fixed.

I guess this is goodbye, baby lappy. I'm sorry that I didn't take a real good care of you. I definitely will be missing your appearance. Again, I lost such a beautiful memories. But like Asim said, the thing is that, I didn't lost him. It's true baby, thanks and I love you!

So, today is February 18th, and it's my phone SIM's card birthday. Which means I just lost $25 worth of credit. Aiyayayayayaya! Anyway, it's been 3 years I've been using that phone number. Hehe. Anyway, happy birthday!

Yesterday, I downloaded some song with my brother's laptop (since this family computer can't speak nor sing). I finally got the song from Chris Brown, entitled Superhuman. It's my latest lullaby in my phone. Hehe. I rarely update my phone with new song.

Here's the lyrics (I'M OUT OF IDEA WHAT TO TALK ABOUT);

Weak,
I have been crying and crying for weeks,
How'd I survive when I can barely speak,
Barely eat, On my knees.

But thats the moment you came to me,
I don't know what your love has done to me,
Think I'm invincible,
I see though the me I used to be.

You changed my whole life,
Don't know what your doing to me with your love,
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me,
Super human, heart beating me,
Now the thing has got me here with you,
Super human.

Strong,
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs,
Feels almost like I've had it all along,
And I can see tomorrow.

Where is problem is gone because,
I flew everywhere with love inside of me,
Its unbelievable to see,
How love can set me free.

You changed my whole life,
Don't know what your doing to me with your love,
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me,
Super human, heart beating me,
Now the thing has got me here with you,
Super human.

Its not a bird, not a plane,
Its my heart and its going, gone away,
My only weakness is you,
Only reason is you,
Every minute with you,
I can feel like I can do anything,
Going going, I'm gone away in love.

You changed my whole life,
Don't know what your doing to me with your love,
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me,
Super human, heart beating me,
Now the thing has got me here with you,
Super human.


--- Chris Brown; Superhuman.

Will write more soon, I'm out of ideas!

******

-{'11:56 PM.

P/S; The lovey dovey words never describe anything baby, but that's how I let you know. They express how I feel.

So dad said it's okay to get my laptop fixed. And he (or mum) will get a new one which I haven't figure out for who yet, but dad asked me to choose for it. So is it mine then? Hehe. Just a whole week of waiting (again), but I think I can still bear with it. I've been keeping myself lately, so that I don't have to blame my love for keeping me alone. Hehe.

Yes keeping myself busy as in helping my mother with her school's work. I enjoy marking her students' paper, but somehow I get depressed when they did too many mistakes. Why didn't they make it right? I so hate doing crosses all throughout their papers. Now I knew how my teachers would feel when they are marking our papers. Hehe.

I no longer like Cheezels - I don't even know if I spell it right, and back then I used to know it. I just had some a little while ago and now I feel a wee bit dizzy. Too salty, perhaps?

This dizziness has got to stop. I'm off to bed then. Assalammualaikum!

P/S; I MISS YOU ASIM!


UBD, please!?
Date: Tuesday, February 17, 2009


My dad hurried me to send my HECAS application. He's worried that I won't be able to make it to UBD. So just now I just submitted it and printed it for reference. I only spent $10 worth of credits which means I'm applying to 2 course only.

  1. Bachelor of Science in UBD.
  2. Scholarship in English Language.

My top priority is getting into UBD. I hope I'll get in by this year. Please, I have this fear to rejection. Don't let me break down, please?

And my abang Azuan I think has just started his evening class. He asked me to make his timetable with this family computer just now, plus a letter for his working place. Life sure is complicated... He's going to take November 'O' Level this year, and I'm hoping for the best from him!

Oh! February 17th; Happy birthday to Mayyer! I lost her number and I wasn't able greet her via MSN because she didn't show up when I'm going online. Anyways, all the best for your future and have a great day!

Let's call it a night then. Assalammualaikum!


Random, totally!
Date: Monday, February 16, 2009


It's Monday very-morning! It's 12:45 AM when I'm writing this line. I'm still up, and currently online-ing and chatting with my Wonder GFFs. I miss kamu dua a lot! Huhu.

My Sunday was terrible I must say. It's the most noisiest day of the week! Why so? Oh please I don't want to talk about it! And it was tiring to have Memet around. It will be even more tiring when Baby Amirah grew up.

Oh btw, when Memet came, I called her 'Amirah' instead of 'Memet'. Haha! She made an angry face to me (I wish I have the picture of it), but of course she made it up. Hehe.

She's not that tiring to be with, she could be sweet at times. You know, before she left, she'll say something like, "Bye bye kaka, I love you." (Okay, I'm saying this word to Asim everytime we said goodbye. Except that, replace the word kaka with sayang. Hehe.) And also, she'll kiss me on my cheeks and I'll kiss hers. So right, it's sweet right!? (It actually make me want to have my very own kid. Hehe. Which is of course, NOT NOW.)

Okay what now? Basically, this post is about Memet. I didn't plan this at all pun. Hehe.

It's 1:06 AM, and I'm still chatting with my two besties. Hehe. My eyes is still wide open.

This is totally random.

Oh tomorrow. Eh salah, today. Karang, I mean. Asim will be joining the pembarisan untuk hari kebangsaan. 6 AM! Yeah, since he's one of a policeman. Huhu. He'll be away for approximately a week. Which means... less communication... And more lonliness... Boredom. Empty. Huhu.

The thing is that, I'll be missing you dear love. Bah jangan lupa melapor diri arah bos kecil ah! Nada off day ni! Hehe. He made me laugh exuberantly when he called me at around 2 PM (wah, atu in details) yesterday. I definitely will be searching that laughters of yours dear!

I think that's all for now. I apologize for the lack of pictures in recent updates... My laptop is still in the process of recovering (I hope). And now, I'm totally into books! Hehe.

Bah bah. Assalammualaikum!

******

-{'9:00 PM.

Love, every little thing that you did to me made me very happy. Walaupun inda dapat berjumpa sama Asim tadi, I'm feeling so happy that both of us have the same feeling. Hehe. I love you so much dearest!! Really hope to see you soon, bos besar! *Grin!

******

Spent my day today with baby Amirah and her parents. Initially we're going to Tutong, but then things turned out that we will have to go to Bandar. We went to the Hospital, Seri Q-lap Mall, and Giant. I'm the one who's carrying Amirah around. Hehe. And her parents treated me for that. Thanks!



Not me.
Date: Thursday, February 12, 2009


Today, baby Amirah turned to 3 months old! I'm jealous you know, she's still very young. Haha. Crap!


I just finished reading the latest book I bought, and I'm all bored again. I wanted to have all the series of Princess Diaries, but now I only got 3 of them. Meg Cabot is an awesome writer, I keep on asking for more after finish reading each book she wrote. And and and, I want more books, English especially! The one with a happy ending please, oh and a romantic one will do! *Wide Grin.

My close girl friends, I heard are all going to take June 'A' Level again this year. Not me. I feel uneasy to use more of my parents' money. I've been using a whole lot of money, you know for my KL vacation, then my laptop broke down... then, June 'A' Level? I don't know how to face them after they've been spending a lot for me. I understand that they won't mind about it, but I DO MIND. I CANNOT ACCEPT HOW TROUBLESOME I AM TO MY PARENTS.

I apologize to both of you my dearest parents, I am sorry for being such a bad daughter. The one who trouble you a lot. I AM SO SORRY!

There comes my 'emo' mood. I better off. Goodbye. Assalammualaikum.


Worst?
Date: Wednesday, February 11, 2009


You know what's the worst thing that might happen to you? When new year comes and it started of badly. And it is happening to me...

1. First, I lost $30 of credit from my mobile phone and thanks to you stupid hacker. Oh wait I shouldn't call you just stupid, I should call you a dummy, loser, sluggish, idiot, foolish, moron, brainless, heartless, and whatever-words-that-suits-you-crazy-beast.

2. Then my love life is kinda unstable last month, which makes me crying pathetically.

3. More? When the result finally came out but it turn out my result was no good at all.

4. And you can see the weather few weeks before, it was raining so bad. I consider it unlucky for me.

5. My laptop broke down. Send it to some repair shop and they said it's heart (motherboard) is broken. It's going to cost around $500 to get it fixed. How pathetic.

6. The hecas thingy. On how they cut your credit when applying for the course. The more course you're applying, the more they cut your credit. (Refer to my first point.)

7. Was thinking of re-taking June 'A' Level, but of course I don't want to be a burden to them. If I am to take all the three subject again, it's going to cost about $400. (Refer to no. 5)

8. Receive a text message from DST, they told me that the yearly payment is on the 18th. (Refer no. 1 and 6)

I can add some more, really. But I'll end up being even more depress. You don't want me to be depress, right? So it settles then.

And I'm off.

P/S: I hate this family-computer's keyboard.

******

-{ '8:26 PM.

Okay, I can't take it anymore! That hecas thingy is really driving me nuts! WHY DO THINGS HAVE TO BE SO COMPLICATED?!


My Everlasting Friendship.
Date: Monday, February 09, 2009


I woke up exactly at 9:45 am this morning. It's not my false though, I've been helping my mom with her work last night. So don't blame me or say something like 'pemalas', okay? Hehe.

A little while later, my mobile phone rang a short old-fashioned ringtone (many complained about it but you guys should bear with me, hehe) and I took a look at it. It's from Sha and she was asking whether I'm taking June A level or not.

SHOOOOOOOT! I forgot the three of us have a date today morning at school! Guys, you can blame me on this. Since when did I have this so-called short-term-memory? I'm sorry kamu... I'll make it up later, anything you want guys. Hehe.

And an hour later another text message come, and it was from dad. He said, "Pijah, tadi durang Maz and Saadah kesekolah ambil sijil beranti," (highly modified for the sake of easy-understanding). Okay, I can sense his concern in our friendship lately. Maybe he also had the worriness I had in mine; I was afraid that the three of us might be separated. I mean, my whole life (okay I'm exegeratting) I've been used to have them both around me. Being seperated is the one thing that I fear most. And they are likely to come true. Maybe. I don't want it to come true. Never!

But then I realize that this is how life works. Friends come and go, but them, I won't let them go. Just like Sha said, they're irreplaceable. They are both very dear to me (I hope I am to you too, hehe) and forever, they're my super and wonder GFFs.

******

-{ '2:51 pm.

Receive a call from ST Solutech Computer and he said it will cost $500 to get my laptop fixed. Bla de bla bla.

Maka bermulalah lagi hari ku yang sial.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!


I miss...
Date: Sunday, February 08, 2009


I MISS MY BABY LAPPY!

but...

I MISS MY BABYLOVE THE MOST!

I'm tired of your rejection dear but I know you didn't mean it. So it's okay, and I'll still be holding on tight. Always. That's because I love you too much.




Takziah untuk Nera sekeluarga.


Bad day.
Date: Saturday, February 07, 2009


Okay first thing first. Happy Birthday to my dearest Abang Azhar! 23 kah? Hardly remember eh. Hehe. Wishing you all the best in the future, have a blast! Enjoy your life, and hope to see you soon! Belanja~ *kirai-kirai. Haha.


I was planning to insert a photo of us together, but my laptop's kinda broken down, internally of course. I'm pretty panic last night, but there's nothing to do. So I just switched off the main plug and hoped that it'll be okay the day after.

AND IT WAS HOPELESS!

There's no sign showing that it's going to be okay. I think the same happened with Abang Azhar's laptop few weeks ago. When I switched it on, the only thing that appeared on it's screen is a black wallpaper - nothing at all.

And the first thing that I'm worried about is something stupid. HAHA. Here's the list:
  • I'm going to be bored as a dead meat. So uncool.
  • I won't be able to plurk! OMG, my karma will goes down! (I know, I know... Haha.)
  • My blog... I doubt if i can blog more.
  • My facebook! I'm going to leave it stranded. Pitiful enough.
  • I won't be able to go online as often as I use to.
  • My SONGS and VIDEOS, what's going to happen to them???!
  • OUR PICTURES! Am I going to lose something that are dear to me, AGAIN????!! (Okay that come last.)
And this one wasn't stupid, it was rather pathetic.
  • It will cost my parents some fortune to get it fixed.

I'm really hoping that it won't cost much to fix it. Please get well soon lappy! I need you!

Enough about that. I'll try to hold on eventhough it's not there. Okay how am I going to live my life now? My lappy is a part of me! There's no way in this world that I going to be apart from it.

CRAP! I'm definetely upset.

What's next?

Oh ya, I skipped today's attachment too. I'll stop by at RIPAS later and give them back my temporary pass. Then we (me and my parents) will be going to ICC. There's going to be..... I'm not sure what it is but it's something to do with Brunei Scholarship... And it's about the new way to apply for the unis. Check this out. I was browsing through them slowly... Now I'm afraid that I won't be able to get in it easily. Let the time decide... Hm...

The time now is twenty-two past eleven, and I haven't take my shower yet. Hehe. You know the weather these days, and that explained why yes? Hm... I'm kinda hungry but I'm not in the mood to digest any food. What else? Oh yeah I'm using the family computer right now, I have trouble with the keyboard. Indaku biasa menaip pulang jadinya. Hehe. And it's located near our living room, and it's very quite. Baby Amirah left with her parents earlier this morning, they're going to my sister-in-law's place. Okay this is totally random.

I better off then. Have a nice day peeps. Assalammualaikum.


Tagged.
Date: Friday, February 06, 2009



Copy badge di atas untuk di letakkan di blog anda.

Ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.
This award was given by Adek Diana.

Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima seterusnya (anda ditag):
1. I hate having a long hair (for now).
2. I miss playing DDR. I hope to play it soon.
3. The reason why I love Kebab so much is because of Asim. So I won't be very happy if it's not him who buy it for me. Hehe.
4. Going online and surf the net is my addiction.
5. I can't live my life without TV, laptop, wireless cοnnection and mobile phone. Plus foods of course. Hehe.
6. I can simply fall for some good-looking actor in the movies, but not for long, and not in real life (I hope).
7. I think I really need a face treatment.
8. I want my flat stomach back. Huhu. Anyone? Okay I hate gaining my weight.
9. I dislike my age this coming September 11th.
10. I miss my Asim so bad that it hurts my chest sometimes. Huhu.

Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan nyatakan nama mereka di blog anda:
1. Sha.
2. Syahirah.
3. Anyone who feels like doing.
4. Anyone who feels like doing.
5. Anyone who feels like doing.
6. Anyone who feels like doing.
7. Anyone who feels like doing.
8. Anyone who feels like doing.
9. Anyone who feels like doing.
10. Anyone who feels like doing.

******

-{ '9:52 PM.

Just checked out the other's blog and found out I was tagged again. Hehe. Thanks!

1. Do you like to talk a lot?
Only when I'm very happy.

2. Do you love anyone now?
YES.

3. Do you hate being scolded in public?
Yes.

4. Do you hate school?
Sometimes.

5. Do you hate yourself?
Sometimes.

6. Do you find yourself cute?
Sometimes. HAHA. As if.

7. Do you feel like having a girlfriend/boyfriend right now?
I have a boyfriend now.

8. Do you smoke or drink?
Neither.

9. Do you like your teachers?
Some of them.

10. Do you take drugs?
No.

11. Do you like going to the movies?
Depends on what movie.

13. Do you prefer calling? Or SMS?
Both.

14. Do you eat every morning?
No.

15. Do you go online everyday?
Not when I'm busy.

16. Do you want to cry now?
Yes. So bad, but I can't.

17. What are you doing now?
Doing this stuff.

18. What are you thinking of now?
Thinking how long will it takes to do this thing.

19. What are you listening to now?
The Script - I'm Yours.

20. Who was the last person who sent you a message?
Babylove Asim.

21. Last time you got lonely?
Now?

22. Last time someone made you happy?
This question is making me depress. I hardly remember when was the last time someone makes me happy.

23. Are you angry at someone?
Kinda. Idk.

24. Guitar or drums?
Both.

25. Do you love the people who makes you happy?
I won't be happy if the one who makes me happy is not the one I love. Get me?

26. Do you believe in those people?
Of course.

27. What is your target for this year?
Getting into uni, UBD especially.

28. Do you rather shop alone or with people?
With specific person.

29. Who do you hate now?
Nobody.

30. Who are your best friends?
You know who you are girls.

31.Who are you missing now?
Asim.

32. How are you feeling now?
Lonesome. Rejected. Unwanted. Hopeless.

33. What can you say about your ex-boyfriend?
I was told not to say anything bad about our ex. I believe we're just not mend to be for each other.

34. Are you single or taken?
Taken.

35. If you are single, are you enjoying it?
Perhaps yes. Perhaps no. How would I know?

36. Do you think your ex really loved you?
No. Yes. Idk.

37. Message to your enemy?
I don't have any enemy.

38. The most important thing in a relationship?
Loyal? Trust? Honesty? Respect? And the list go on...

39. Say something about alcoholism?
I didn't see any benefit from drinking any of them.

40. Any advice to a friend you know who has a problem?
That's what life is baby. There's always the ups and downs.

41. What can you say about "HATERS"?
May God bless them?

42. Name an opposite sex you like to see everyday.
Asim. Can I add more? My father, my close brother.

43. You're in love with that person?
Yes.

44. Last tough question you answered?
Idk.

45. What did you answer?
Idk.

46. Do you have a lot of picture in your blogger?
Kinda.

47. Favorite place?
The beach.

48. Tag 5 person
a. Sha.
b. Syahirah.
c. Pidah.
d. Anyone who feels like doing.
e. Anyone who feels like doing.

49. Who are they?
Good friends of mine.

50. Upload your edited picture.




Day Off.
Date: Thursday, February 05, 2009


On my MSN:


And Asim was saying something like, "Off day buatan sendiri,". Hehe.

It was true though, I just came to realize that hospital wasn't for me. I think. But some part of me tells that I want to go for something to do with hospital. Yet, I haven't figure out what it is.

Scratch that Pharmacy! I keep on telling the doctors I want to do Pharmacy, but heck no! It's just that I didn't know what I want to do, and I kinda want to do Pharmacy when I'm still doing my A Level. But with this ugly result I got, who wants to take me to do Pharmacy?! And the 1 week rotation attachment in RIPAS Hospital makes me realize that I don't want to do Pharmacy. Thank goodness, the attachment is really beneficial, yeah at least for me. It's interesting and enjoyable but it was rather tiring. Transportation problem gave me a headache. Being a burden to a very good friend of yours is really depressing somehow. *Garu-garu kepala.

So a short review will do after a long absence of posting. Sorry for that btw.

Day 1:

  • A long speech from the doctor in charge. It was rather stressful. The doctor asked something I never heard before, "What do you see yourself in the future?". So yeah, it's stressful. And cold. My legs was trembling.
  • The four of us (Me, Sha, Juju and Pidah) ate buttermilk chicken with rice. I think it's spicy but the other said it was hot. Lain jua lidahku ani. Hehe.
  • I'm in the Paediatrics Clinic. I was with Doctor Suresh if I'm not mistaken. He's a very nice doctor, and I got some additional knowledges on babies. It makes me love babies even more, but not children though. Haha. Pemilih.

Day 2:

  • We got to see the Laboratory (Makmal Negara). It's very tiring to walk around to see the stuffs, and we sometimes were given a short briefing of what they do on each department, so it was tiring to stand there while do the hearing.
  • The Laboratory that we get to see were Microbiology Lab, Histology/Saitology Lab, Immunology Lab, Serology Lab, Hematology Lab and lastly Chemistry Clinical Lab. There's some problem with the timing since there's no one in charge of taking care of us.
  • In the afternoon, we went to the Radiology and Pharmacy. My impression on Radiology? Enormous machines! Haha. The dark room was teriffying, banar, it was really dark in there! You can't see anything except for the two tiny red lights. Pharmacy? Smelly drugs and it makes my head spinny.
Day 3:

  • We get to see the therapies on that day. Physiotherapist, Occupational Therapist, Speech Therapist, and Audiology. Okay I'm not interested with those so I really don't know what to talk about. Hehe.
  • Later that afternoon, we went to Berakas, to the National Dental Centre Berakas. It's my firse time going there, and we have trouble going there. Hehe. As usual, a short breifing and then a tour. It did gave me ideas on what they were doing. Rupanya durang buat gigi palsu jua! I didn't know that before. Haha. And I didn't know that there's a tablet which can detects the part of your teeth which you missed after brushing! Haha. Siok eh!
Day 4:
  • I'm absent! *Bangga. Haha.

Saturday is our last day!

I made a decision that I don't want to study overseas, yea you know with that result. Yes I'm not over it. I expected a better result. Hmph. So I won't bother to look around any course that wasn't available in Brunei. Enough said.

Btw, I spend most of my time today with my laptop. I miss browsing to my facebook account, this blog and also Plurk. They were like boyfriend to me. Okay Asim will be mad if he reads this, I think. Hehe. But please don't be. I was using the term 'boyfriend' because they tend stick to you no matter what. Hehe. And very loyal indeed.

It's difficult to move around lately, because of the rain. I was happy that it didn't rain on Monday, but it gets worst now. So be careful wherever you are, stay indoors if possible and think about your beloved person. Woseh. Pandulah dengan berhati-hati, ingatlah orang yang tersayang. Haha.

Oh I haven't heard from Abang Azhar since he left for UBD last Friday. All the best for TP brother, you can do it! And I miss you! *Sobbing. P/S: You bithday is coming soon toh~
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Lastly, greetings!

Today's birthday babies are... Nunud and Shafirah! All the best for both of you, and have a blast. Nud, sorry that I'm not able to came to your place ah. You know, the rain... and Abang Duan nada dirumah pun. Hehe. And Shafirah, belanja!! Hehe.

February 1st: Happy bithday to Rose! Hehe. I know you have fun, hehe. May you be bless with happiness dearest, and all the best for the upcoming A Level. Oh not to forget, Asim's sister, Nurul, it's her birthday today too! So good luck with A Level sis, and happy always!

February 3rd: My cutey friend's birthday! It's Juju's day. Hehe. I hope you likey likey that presents. Hehe. The surprise was simple but I hope you don't mind. Curse that attachment thingy which clashed with your birthday, and plus the rain which obstructed the others to come. Hmph.

Did I miss anyone? Drop me a text and and tell me who, in case I did miss.

I think that's all. Enough kali eh? Hehe. So off me go. Assalammualaikum.

P/S; Pardon me for any English mistakes. I'm lazy to check now, but I will later. Maybe. Who knows?