I wrote this on my MSN personal message:

I'm bored at this moment and so I opened up my Plurk account, and of course I plurk (like, DUHH~). Then there's this conversation:

Kamu pun curious? Kerupok ani bah~

Hehe. I'm off then. Assalammualaikum!

The moral of the story: JOIN PLURK! Haha!

I thought I'll feel less depressive as the result is finally came out. But I ended up being more depressive than ever. *Sigh. Hello, it's my future I'm talking about here. I don't want to be a burden to my parents!

People keep on asking what's my plan now. But really, I wanna go for UBD. Now with that kinda result, I feel iffy about it. Well, it's worth to try right. Anyways I heard from my UBD-friend that the uni will be only offering 4 courses starting this year intake. I mean, just 4? Come on, it's like the opportunity to go there is wee - it's like no chance at all. But still, it's worth to try so I'll keep my ass busy! Haha!

I'll also apply for other courses, for one solid reason - I don't want to stuck my ass at home and become a burden. Technical schools, Nursing collage, ITB, UBD, MOE scholarship. I hope I'll stuck to one of those.

I was thinking of re-taking my 'A' Level this coming May/June this year, but I feel sorry for my parents for wasting their money just like that. However, I promised myself that I'll do all my very best for it. That means I'll have to go to school tomorrow, since I'll be busy the whole next week and that the closing date for registering 'A' Level is on the 7th.

Next week will be a hectic one, I hope. Being at home with a depressive feeling somehow makes me much much older, and fatter. Haha!

I better stop. Time is ticking so fast that I hardly realize. Assalammualaikum.

When the clock strikes exactly at 2 pm, I received a text message and I keep on telling myself, "No no it's not from that SMS Brunei Result." And I guess I can't keep on running away from reality. It really is from them.

I'm tired of crying. I'm glad that the stressful waiting is over.


-{ 'Edited part.

My break-down (sp?):

Today's outing with Abang Azhar was kinda stressful.

Why?
1. Woke up late and in rush. I hate rushing, and I ended up ketingalan banyak barang. *Sigh.
2. Aku lagi stress memikirin pasal result.

All the way to UBD, I'm pretty quite. I usually sang out loud with brother. Which tells I'm being stress out. Not much at UBD, did a lit bit of waiting then went straight away to Giant. Did some shopping for foods and some hostel stuffs for brother. We got back home at around 12.

My mood gets better when we're on our back home. It's because brother bought me a book! Thanks bro! Hehe. And I sang out loud all our way home. I love singing , but I don't have a great voice. Haha.

Oh I dropped by at Sha's place, kan ambil barang yang tertinggal sana. I wish to stay longer but... I don't think it's the right time. Nanti tah ah... Nah, lupa kan bergambar sama Sha tadi. Hehe.

I'm out of idea. Assalammualaikum!

First thing first. Today birthday baby is... Nera! Happy birthday dearest! Wishing you having a good life near future, with a good health and prosperity. Enjoy the celebration babe. XOXO.

I went to KB today afternoon after taking my lunch. We went there to attend Majlis Dzikir and Aqiqah for the sort-of-newborn baby. I went there with my parents, and Abang Azhar joined too! I'm glad to get out of my home for a while.. Its been stressful here at home.

Manage to snap some picture. Here it is:







Oh I registered to the SMS Brunei Result earlier today morning. My cousin told me that it will come out tomorrow. I'm sick thinking of it. Really, this whole week people keep on saying about the result but still... alum jua ada. So why don't we just wait, and pray for the best. Okay?

I guess I'll join Abang Azhar tomorrow to UBD and do a lil bit of shopping. I need money. Moooommmmyyyy! But somehow a part of me tell me to stay, you know in case if the result came out. And I might be frustrated. Ah I should really stop thinking about it for now.

I'm currently plurking. I joined it last week and found out that it was awesome and cool! Hehe.

I think I better off now, blankness strike! Haha! Assalammualaikum!

P/S; Aku rindu sama kawan-kawan sekolahku!
P/S; I wanna see you baby! I wanna see you! I wanna see you!

I have no choice but to hate you if you don't spend some of your time on me.

I guess I'm not that important in your life baby. Seriously, I'm crying by myself right here and you're out day ignoring me.

I want to take back these words: SUMPAH, start hari ani inda Fizah bunyi-bunyi kan jumpa Asim lagi. I just want to let you know that I mean it in the first place.

My heart is dying baby. My love for you seems fading...

I am sick of your rejection...

I'm rather depress right now.

I did some surfing here and there just now, and found out that 'A' Level and 'O' Level results were released yesterday, in UK of course.


I guess it will come out on this 28th. Maybe. Who knows?


-{ '11:45 PM

I'm pretty jobless - actually, I got tons of work to do but I'm not in any good mood to do all those - at home, and I miss my friends so much. I haven't seen them for months now, except for my two wonder GFFs. So this post is for the ladies, with a wish to see you again soon.

Back in 2007. This was when we registered to enter the sixth form.

Majlis Penyampaian Hadiah 2007.

At ICC.

Sha's 17th birthday, back in 2007.

My 18th birthday.

Hari Raya back in 2007.

Orientation 2008.

Juju's place 2008.

Betty's 19th birthday. Jolibee.

At my place, discussion on GP Project, 2008.

Sha's 18th birthday, last year.

Betty and me. Yang lumpat tinggi atu aku. Hehe.

At my place. Makan-makan 7 hari.

My 19th birthday.

Hari Raya 2008!

After 'A' Level Chemistry Practical Exam.

Ani aku inda ingat bila. Kamu ingat?

I'm dedicating this song to my special someone, so please listen and look through me.

Why is that we're further apart from each other when I feel like wanting you? You drives me crazy baby. It was so uncool.

I hate it when you broke your promise. Is it hard to hold on to it? Am I being pushy or something? Did I do any wrong to you? Are you getting tired of me?

You see, you're really driving me crazy. I'm thinking of all the negativities ani wah.

Tagged by Grah..

1. Do you think you're hot ?
Kinda. Haha. Actually, no.

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.


3. Why do you like that picture?
Simply because, I love that dress I'm wearing. It's Sha's dress btw. And because, my hair was long and I look nice in it (at least it's nice to me). And lastly because I wasn't wearing my spectacle. I hate wearing spectacle!

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
Last December. It was something cheesy and I love it.

5. The last song you listened to?
Irwansyah - Camelia. It's ubber awesome!

6. What are doing right now besides this?
Listening to the song I mention above, and chatting with Asim.

7. What name would you prefer besides yours?
No, thank you. I love my name. *Grin.

People I tag:

1. Sha
2. Juju
3. Rose
4. Myros
5. Zzah

8. Who is number 1?
One of my Wonder GFF! Hehe.

9. Number 2 is having relationship with?
Her boyfriend?

10. Say something about number 5?
She loves pinching my cheek. And god it hurts. She's a very good friend of mine. Tempat ku bermanja ni dulu. Haha.

11. How about number 4?
Korean lover? Rainbow lover? Hehe. She's a very good friend of mine. Rindu lah kan borak-borak in group awal-awal pagi before starting our class dulu ah.

12. Who is number 3?
My sis, my friend, my dear friend. Hehe.

Done that. Another one...

Tagged by Zzah.

I choose/tagged:

1. Sha.
2. Juju.
3. Myroz.
4. Rose.
5. Zarr.
6. Rafidah.
7. Mira.
8. Zaty.
9. Grah.

How do you know 1?
When we enter the same school, SMSO and we're in the same class.

What would you do if you never met 2?
I don't know. Things will never be the same...

What would you do if 3 and 4 dated you?
Why would they anyway? Hehe.

Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
Good friend, yes.

Do you think 7 is attactive?
Yes.

Do you know anything about 8's family?
Nope.

Tell me something about 9.
She's a good person... Innocent... Ah.. Ah.. (blank)

What language does 2 speaks?
Malay. English. Brunei Language? Hehe. Korea sikit-sikit hehe.

Who is 3 going out with?
Her family? Hehe.

How old is 4?
She's turning 19 this February.

Who is 6 favourite singer?
Pidah, help me! Haha.

7?
Idk.

Is 8 single?
I guess.

What is 9 last name?
I forgot.

Would you consider being in a reationship with 1?
Relationship as in? A best friend will do!

Which school does 2 goes?
Currently in holiday..

What do you like about 3?
She's being confident in her own way. Hehe. (Aku blank ne sebenarnya!)

Today, I received a phone call in the late afternoon. Little did I know that it's from RIPAS. I thought it's going to be Asim. And once I picked up my phone and answered it, I seriously think that it'll be another prank call from him. But it's just my imagination. I miss the way he treated me, making me laugh out loud like there's no tomorrow. *Sigh.

Don't apologize please, it'll just make me feel worst.

Back to the RIPAS thing, it's confirmed! 2nd of February... The thing that I'm worry about is about transportation. I wish I have my own car. A wish that will take a long time to be granted.

'Bedtime Stories'



'Pink Panther 2'



and..

'Confessions of a Shopaholic'

I don't really have anything else to share. So I guess this is goodbye. Assalammualaikum.

What's with me? Maybe, you don't want to know.

My attempt to wake up early is a success today! Like, finally. Not that early though, around 8 AM. Still considered as early right? Right? (I desperately need a yes here.) I hate my schedule - which I doubt if I have one - these days. Waking up when it's almost noon, and sleep when it's almost dawn. The thing is that, I just can't get to my bed and close my eyes. I tried, very hard but failed each time. *Sigh.

Unfortunately, I dazed off while watching some anime in the afternoon. I feel iffy about getting to bed early tonight. I'm sick of this sleeping sickness!

And my morning wasn't great at all. I got lazy and ended up sitting in front of my addiction - laptop. *Sigh. And I sorta carried away with some anime. I found out some of them are kawaii and cool! Hehe. Abang Azhar has gone to UBD for some days, left me with no company.

I've been watching these this week: 'Ada Kamu, Aku Ada', 'Sepi' and 'Heart'. These three makes me cry, though it didn't really make you want to cry. Now I realize that I'm dying to watch more of this kind of movie. I just want to cry... without a specific personal reason.

I don't feel like eating these days. But still I have to fill this stomach. I'll only have this I-don't-want-to-eat-anything-disease when I'm actually frustrated. Or dumped. I wonder what's the reason behind this? The weather again, perhaps? Hehe. But I'm craving for Kebab.

I miss the beach, so bad.

I need to jog soon.

Enough said. I ain't complaining no more. Assalammualaikum.

P/S; I need a new skin again. My previous posts looks horrible in this one. Will work on it soon.

Yesterday, I went outing (yeah kinda) with my Abang Azhar. Again, just the two of us. I'm reluctant to go at first, since I need to do a lot of cleaning. But na'ah, I just want to go out of my place for a while, cuci mata! I haven't went out since I came back from KL. Pathetic? Big time!

We took off at 10:30 AM and our first stop is... Hua Ho Petani Mall. My first attempt for taking money from the bank. Mission completed, increasing my experience level! Haha, crap! Too much games, perhaps? Tapi, ketara first time atu. I didn't gave that person my IC. Haha! Malu malu!

Click click!

Blurry eh!

Then dropped by at Mum's Bakery. I was expecting to see my friend Siti Fatimahwati there, since Asim said that she's no longer working at the Jolibee. But I can't see anywhere, her day off maybe? Now that I have my own money with me, I didn't have to feel guilty about using my brother's. Hee!

After that we continue our journey to UBD. He got something to settle there. Too bad it was raining cats and dogs, it was freezing indeed! There's no sign that the sun is going to show up. *Sigh. He said that it's going to take a lot of time, so he decided to take me a tour. It was great, but packed with people. Afterall, the new semester started yesterday, explaining the large number of uni-ians.

He even told me what each place is, like "Ani FOS," and "Kalau bayar hostel nanti di sini ah,". Hehe. It made me think that university life is really great. Mudah-mudahan ada rezeki masuk uni, Amin! I love the library, puas ni buat research berjam-jam disana. Hehe.

12:30 noon, went to Kiulap to send his laptop. Damam laptopnya! Hehe. We went to Seri Q-lap Mall afterward and took my prayer there. Thank goodness ada surau. After that we stopped at kadai CD, and I bought Heart and Ayat-ayat cinta. I'm dying to watch Heart again, hardly remember where I put the CD before. Then we took our lunch at the Jolibee. I don't really feel like eating, but I have too! Hmph.

Click click!

We have to get back to UBD, and this time I waited in the car since he got his friend with him. It's awkward don't ya think? While waiting, I did some reading! Hehe. I'm dying to buy some more books eh!

Both of us are tired then and the weather made us sleepy. Blaming the weather eh? Haha! We went home before Magrib.

The last thing that I remember about yesterday is that, I didn't went to bed early. I slept at around 2 AM. What is wrong with me? What is this kind of sleeping sickness? I'm tired of waking up late everyday ba! *Sigh.

Okay then. Signing out.