It's one of the most difficult night that I have to go through last night.

Betty texted me two days ago I think, and she told me that some of our friends was already being interviewed with UBD. Surprised, I check the UBD website but found nothing at all about the interview. I calm her down, saying that maybe our turn will come soon.

But last night, I asked Zaim in person, and he told me that it was true. He finished his interview with UBD. What does that make me then? Am I rejected? I am not accepted by UBD?

There goes my break down. I cried my eyes out! I feel hopeless, rejected, idiot, you name it!

I texted Juju about it. This time, she calm me, saying that our turn will come soon, Insya Allah. I have to believe it, there's really nothing left to do. Suddenly, I can feel some kind of hope. Thanks to her, I was able to smile again. Thanks Juju.

I have to apologize to Zaim then. I ignored him after having that conversation. It seems that he want to make me feel better, but I disregard his kindness. I am sorry for that dude. Well, when it comes to making me feel better, the one person that will do best at it ought to be Asim. Hehe. He is the one person that I wanted to talk to about my problem. But it didn't work well last night.

That was what the title of this post all about. Thank God it was just temporary.

I still feel kinda worry though. What if its true that I'm rejected? I'm going to face each and every day with regret then. It will be frustrating. Urgh. I don't want to think about it for now.

As for today, I have nothing new to share. Same-old, same-old. Boring, thats the best word to describe my life today.

Off. Assalammualaikum.