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November Rain.
Date: Friday, October 31, 2008
 Another month pass by. Meninggalkan seribu satu kenangan.Last few weeks that is on the Oct 21st, it was suppose to be Nini's 79th birthday. It hurts me badly, to think how happy he was last year, bila kami sambut birthday arwah. We even planned to celebrate another birthday for him this year. *Sigh. But I believe he's in a much better place right now. Amin. This Nov 6th will be the 100th day since you left. Al-Fatihah. You will always be remembered, Nini.
November will be another hectic month for me as there will be more papers to be sited. Left with GP, Chemistry and Biology lagi. I started to miss Mathematics udah, since it's my favourite subject among all the others. HEE.
Million apologizes if I am not greeting those birthday babies for this month. Since I will be busy(I hope) until the 20th. HEE.
Anyway, on the 5th, it will be the last day to meet the beautiful girls beramai-ramai. I mean Sha, Juju, Betty, Agnaes, and me. HEE. Tapi I'll be able to meet Sha and Juju lagi, but not Betty and Agnaes. Whatever it is, I will miss you guys. I know! It's like, 3 minggu saja kali ah! But still, aku akan merindui kamu!
And to my 3-stooges babes! HEE. I miss our hang-out moments! Nantitah puas-puas, lapas exam. Insya-Allah. XOXO.
And to my cinta. I might not be able to update as regularly as I used to right now. So I would like to say Happy Advance 47th months of love! A month to go, and it will be our 4 years. I can't wait for another date. *Smile cutely. HAHA.  I think Abang Azhar is having a great time in Kuching. HEE. Bah I think atu saja lah. Aku blank sudah. Will miss you blogy. Assalammualaikum!
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Complete mess.
Date: Thursday, October 30, 2008
I am having a conversation with Abang Azhar on MSN right now. Hari ani durang nada class, since it's UBD's convo day today. And karang malam, he's off to Kuching for his chess tournament. For 4 days lagi toh! First time naik flight, siyok neh! I haven't got the chance pulang. HEE. Anyways, have a safe flight brother! And good luck! P/S; Yes bro, laziness melanda.  HAA! Today's paper was a complete mess. I blame myself for not doing a proper revision. Enough said. My morning was a disaster but he brighten it up. You know who you are love. I wish you could stay longer. AKU MAU ASIM LAGI! Okay I shall move on for tomorrow's paper. P/S; Stay strong dearest Sha. Will see you tomorrow! XOXO.
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Penyakit.
Date: Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Aku rindu Asim. Seriously. Penyakit ani ada ubatnya kah? It's like I can't take it anymore!
I really should stop whining and start revising.
Lusa and esok lusa will be it. I'm gonna miss Mathematics after Friday. It's my last Mathematics paper. Hmph.
Off.
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It's baby boy!
Date: Monday, October 27, 2008
Congratulation to Sis Ezan who deliver her first baby boy yesterday afternoon (I didn't know the exact time). Same goes to her husband! (: Unfortunately, Asim was working yesterday so he didn't knew that the baby was born. He just knew this morning, and he texted me just now. He was adorable. I mean the baby. I got his picture with me, but I'm lazy to edit it now so I guess I'll be back later with the baby's picture. His name is Muhammad Asyraf Irfan (please kindly correct me if I was wrong baby!) I personally think that he looks like Asim. HAHA. Will be back. Cheers. *** Edited part. 1:02 PM.    Now, waiting for my sis's turn lagi. I heard it will be on the November 5th, or earlier. HEE! Aww kami dua Asim ada anak buah e! HEE! :D Bah I better off. Assalammualaikum.
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Malas.
Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008
Aku sungguh malas. :/
Whenever I sat down to do the reading, my mind keep on thinking of these;
1. Eh, tidor kajap eh. Lapas bangun belajar.
2. Boring eh. Kan liat TV.
3. Kan blogging eh.
And I hate myself for that. Guess what? I fall for it. :/
I really hope that there's this someone who can slap me on my face and said, "BELAJAR!". I guess my parents and boyfriend loves me too much that they didn't force me.
Wait, is that a good thing... or the other way round?
Oh anyway, get well soon Babylove. I am missing you terribly (again and again).
I better off.
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Testing. HEE!
Date: Saturday, October 25, 2008
I am using mobile phone to post this one. Just wanna check if I can blog via phone.
Did it actually work?
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New look (again)! Haa!
Date: Friday, October 24, 2008
Will change the header soon. HEE!
Okay going offline. (:
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Mental. HEE!
Date: Thursday, October 23, 2008
Aku sungguh excited. HEE. Kaka Asim is about to deliver her first baby. That actually explain kenapa Asim inda terlayan aku hari ni. Sampai aku kan mental. HEE. Congratulation Sis! (:
 P/S; Asim jahat inda bawa aku! :( HEE! Love you! *** Edited part. 9:38 PM. Kamu, alum lagi. Kata Asim 2 or 3 hari lagi. HAHA. Malu ku eh! :D Awal dah ku cakap congrats ne. HAHA.
Bah. Going offline.
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You're deleted. And it's okay.
Date:
Did I just delete someone in my life? I think it's a yes.
How I wish live is that simple, like... By pressing the delete button and everything will just disappear. Just like that. Like nothing happens. I wish. HAHA.
I wish to say it does not hurt. But indeed it hurt. I don't have to worry anymore, and I'll be okay. HEE.
I will do anything for you. You know who you are sayang. (:
I am now relieved. Feels like home again! Wheeee!
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13 papers left.
Date: Monday, October 20, 2008
Heeeeelllooooooooooooo!
Mathematics Paper 4 was... just okay. Won't comment further since I don't know how I am doing. I've done my very best. And now praying for the best jua. HEE.
This morning, Betty told me she'll visit my blog. So now... I present her... with...
Ini lah hp Betty. Attractive yow! Pinky~ I wanted to apply for the Scholarship to University of Otago, New Zealand. Only that everything need to be done before October 28, 2008. Which means that... I won't be able to do that due to this exam fever. Heh. One more point, aku sungguh tidak rajin. HEE! Moreover, I think the requirement is too high for me. I guess I'll end up in Nursing College next year. *Sigh. Aku harap sangat masa itu dapat diputar! HAA! I'm ending this post. Assalammualaikum! P/S; Jauh jua Asim sampai ke Temburong keraja atuu...? :/ I'm missing you love! Happy Birthday to Zaim!
and..
Happy Belated Birthday to Syahidah Husna (Oct 16th).
All the best for both of your future!
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Group Chat.
Date: Sunday, October 19, 2008
Today:
- Revising my Chemistry Paper 31
- Revising Mathematics Paper 4.
- Open House! :D Foods: Soto, Nasi, Ayam BBQ & Hot dog BBQ plus kuih raya. :D
- Sha sleepover at my place! :) Juju can't come. :( Tapi Asim pun datang! XD
- Skype-ing and Video-Calling with Sha, bersebelahan pun kan ber-webcam! HEE!
- I think both of us were totally 'SUGAR HIGH'. Makan lagi yang manis-manis!
- Akan meletup lagi if our Juju is here. HEE. :D
- Group Chat with Sha, Juju and Sepol.
- Tidur akhir. HAA!
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One paper DOWN!
Date: Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I just got back from school with Asim. And yeah, it's my Mathematics Paper 1 today. The paper was unexpectedly difficult. GAHH! Luckily, I manage to answer them, only that I left a 4 marks question incomplete. The time is really envy!
The fact that Asim is in trouble really worries me. :/ Baby, though it's your fate, I'll still be with you. Okay? (: And please........... don't cry................ (':
Thanks guys who's wishing me a good luck. *Hugs!
Assalammualaikum.
P/S; I think I miss my life at school. HAH!
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It's Okay
Date: Sunday, October 12, 2008
Good Evening! I'm in a good mood to post but unfortunately, nothing come across my mind what to type. Heh. Just now, I had my study date with a cousin. I had a great laugh at the end. I've been so muram lately, I don't know why. And again, I've been locking myself in my pink room these days, to make sure that no body enters it, so I won't get any distraction. But the question is, did I manage to study peacefully? Heck no! Hah! I keep on yawning though I have 8 hours of sleeping at night. Not to mention, my laptop attracts me. LOL! :D My very first paper is three days away from today. Lucky it's Mathematics Paper 1, but I haven't done any preparation for that paper. Hish. Time, oh time... Please wait... I feel like crying. You know, people said that crying makes you feel way better. I feel so miserable and alone right now, and I need something which can make me feel better. But I can't just cry without any reason, yes? Oh, this year Raya, was like no Hari Raya at all. Just another stupid annoying sounds from you-know-what. I didn't find it interesting and fun pun. On the bright side, seeing my cousins makes me feels good, though I'm not that close with them. Anyway, I better stop now. The time is so envy. (-,-)" Assalammualaikum. I wish to be that girl, who is always smile and said, "It's Okay,"
But sometime, I just can't be her.
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Distraction NO?
Date: Friday, October 10, 2008
This feeling is really... driving me crazy. Again, as I said before... It's just a matter of time, so why does it has to hurt this much?
I now got a new term for this craziness. He sure is my addiction. As seeing him now, makes me wanna see him later. Seeing him today makes me wanna see him tomorrow. Seeing him tomorrow makes me wanna see him on the next day. It continues... until the end of time. Great? NOT!
And missing him this much is a big distraction. I don't know. Am I being too reasonable? Am I just giving excuses? Am I?
I want to wake up now. There's no time to play around. Right?
I should get to work.
I'm starting to hate myself again.
Don't you think I should have a day off?
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Okay, I better off. Assalammualaikum.
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VIP day tomorrow. (Edited)
Date: Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Currently listening to; ST12 - Jangan pernah berubah.mp3There will be the VIP day for the Upper Sixth Student tomorrow. I wonder why they use the term VIP day as in Very Important Parents day. It's actually the day where the student's parents meet the teachers. I don't know what kind of criticism would approach me tomorrow. And I think many will not come. I mean, it's already too late... And it's not compulsory to come pun. HEE. I may not see the girls tomorrow. Aww, will miss you guys! And and and... We made a decision that Saturday will be the last day for us to go to School. We'll be absent after Saturday. (: On Friday, I'll go to Sha's place. Rindu Si Sunshine eh! :D Oh, I got a study date with a cousin on Sunday. And hari-hari yang lain dari itu, I'll be busy revising. Eh eh, just now I received a forward message from Mayyer, saying that we'll celebrate Hari Raya in the lab, on Saturday just for the Biologist. HEE. Looking forward for that. I miss Mrs. Laly! Okay that's all from me today. Assalammualaikum! My report card.
 P/S; Thanks teachers for not saying bad things about me. HAHA!
(Edited on October 16th, 2008.)
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Smile Again. Fall Again. (:
Date: Monday, October 06, 2008
Firstly, I would like to say Happy 46th months (which equals to 3 years and 10 months in case you're wondering, HE-HE.) of love my dear cinta!
And thank you for making it to my place today afternoon. Oh gosh, I'm falling again! *Chuckles.
P/S; Notice that 3 tins of drinks? He did that! LOL!
And on top of that, I've decided not to be far away from him, though I will be busy for my Exam. It's just that I can't live properly without him! *Kisses and hugs for cyg! HE-HE! Another song which best describe my feeling... There’s something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I’m falling in love with you.--- Corrine May; Something About You.
Oh today Abang Zhar left for UBD. HA-HA. And it's my first time bersalaman with Abang Juan before he's gone for work. Lameeeee! :D
School was totally fine (but hotteh in there, I sweat a lot!)! Sunyi dikit without Si Kecil kami, Juju! HE-HE. She's not feeling well this morning, so she's absent from school. Kecarian kami. HEE.
The reasons why I'm hating you;
1. Because you never make us happy.
2. You make my parents gone mad.
3. You only need us when you're in trouble.
4. You smokes cigarettes, which means you stinks!
5. You know that you got such a bad attitude but you never change.
6. You rather wasted your money on unimportant things than spending some for your family.
7. Because I dislike your partner.
8. You never act as a brother.
9. You think you're always right and we're always wrong.
10. Overall, because you make people around you hate you.
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Delayed Post. (Edited)
Date: Sunday, October 05, 2008
Let the picture do the 'talking' yea. HEE!
This is how I look on the first day of Raya.
The cousins... at my place...
On the second day of Raya.. We went to KB..
The third day...
The brothers...
This was taken on the forth day of Raya. Baby Memet was here! (:
Lastly... Did you notice something different in this picture?
Something pinky...
HAA! I'm using my pink blusher and my pink lipstick. (:
I just love pink! HEE!
P/P/S; Raya was never the same, without you Nini. Al-Fatihah.
(Edited and posted on; October 7th, 2008
Edited (again) on; October 15th, 2008)
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Tomorrow?
Date:
Will I be able to see you tomorrow?
Oh God, I am stupid.
The only reason why my heart beat faster when I see you is because I'm scared.
Not that I love you. So get your own life, as I got mine to take care of.
You don't deserve anything way better that him. Get it?
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Fall Again.
Date: Saturday, October 04, 2008
This feeling is ridiculously nonsense! It's killing me. Why do it have to be painful? It's just a matter of time, so why does it hurt this much?
Cinta, I miss you. Terribly.
Don't you?
*Sigh.
And I'm lost again. Please be here and wake me up.
This song best describe how I'm feeling.
Feels like a fire that burns in my heart,
Every single moment that we spend apart,
I need you around for every day to start,
I haven’t left you alone...
There’s something about you, I stare in your eyes,
And everything I’m looking for I seem to find,
All this time away is killing me inside,
I need your love in my life...
I wanna spend time till it ends,
I wanna fall in you again,
Like we did when we first met,
I wanna fall with you again...
We fought in a battle, nobody one,
And now we face a mountain to be overcome,
You can’t turn away, the past is said and done,
I need us to carry on...
I wanna spend time till it ends,
I wanna fall in you again,
Like we did when we first met,
I wanna fall with you again...
You’ll try everything,
You never thought would work before,
When you live, when you love, and you give them your all,
You can always give up some more...
Baby nothing means anything,
Unless you’re here to share with me,
I can breathe, I can bleed, I can die in my sleep,
Cause you’re always there in my dreams...
I wanna spend time till it ends,
I wanna fall in you again,
Like we did when we first met,
I wanna fall with you again...
You again...
--- Glenn Lewis, Fall Again.
Another long day...
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Err.. Letters?
Date: Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Dear readers,
I'm taking this opportunity to wish all my family, cousins, friends and whoever you are Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Dengan kedatangan bulan Syawal ani, I would like to ask for everyone's forgiveness.. Maafkanlah kalau ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata, terumpat, terusik, terpukul and macam-macam 'ter' lagi. Either directly or indirectly.
To the my girls a.k.a belangkas friends,
I'm missing you guys! See you next Monday! Wehehehehe~ And girls, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin. And I would like to apologize, sekiranya ada salah... Have fun... before the big exam! :D
And to my cinta,
Be strong love. No matter how it hurts I'll still be there, right by your side. I don't care whether it's wrong or right, I'll still love you.
Sincerely,
Afizah H Abu Bakar
There you go again, September.
BIG HELLO to October.
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