You complete me love.
Thank you again, for bringing back my smile.
(:

Goodbye July.
August, welcome!

P/S; 2 days left for Sha's birthday. (:
P/P/S; 2 more weeks to go before the Qualifying exam.
P/P/P/S; June AS result will come out sometime in August.

Note: Super Junior is coming to KL on this August 2nd for performance on the Music Award! Must see! (: But for sure I'll miss it. Good luck SuJu!

I'm off. Assalammualaikum.

"Fizah mau ikut Asim jalan," and that was the moment that brings back my smile. I love you baby. Always will.

I'm back with a big smile on my face, but not here in my deep dried heart. People told me to get over it, and I do. But never will I to forget about it.

My family still haven't stop talking about Mulah Nini. He was admitted to the hospital last week, and a week later.. he's not here anymore. My parent didn't tell us the truth, which is quite disappointing. I really wanted to be there until his last breathe, at least asking for his forgiveness. Instead, I was left at home. I'm not blaming anyone, but I do blame myself.. thinking how a bad cucu I might be.

There at school, my friends really made my day. Something told me that, I need a shoulder to lean on.. All I can think about at that time is Sha. And I gave her a hug, a warm hug.. which makes me feel okay again. Thank you darling. (:

I feel like crying but I won't. My cousin told be that, inda baik menangisi pemergiaan orang yang sudah tiada. Kana seksa di kubur tu orang yang meninggalkan kamu tu.. And so I must I stop.. But of course, sekali sekala terkanang.. It can't be help.. )':

For a while, I can't understand why they are laughing. And now that I am laughing too, my answer would be.. It's just unbearable that I just started to smile again.. Because deep inside me, I know he would not like it.

And I'm happy that Nini bini is living with us.. Alhamdulillah..

And also, Alhamdulillah, majlis yang berlangung tiga hari berturut-turut berjalan dengan lancar..

I must go.. The time is killing me! Assalammualaikum..

There's not much more to laugh about..
And I somehow hate people who laughed when you're lying there..

But thanks to 'you',
I'm now able to smile again.

Though Nini was not here anymore..
We'll always pray for you, Insya Allah..
I'm sorry I might not be a good cucu to you..

Million thank yous to;
My friends who somehow said takziah. (:
Orang-orang kampung yang datang ke rumah.
The cousins and family.

It is still unbearable..
I'll be strong..

Sincerely;
Afizah binti Haji Abu Bakar

P/S; It's my 200th post..
P/P/S; I'm sorry girls for not being there for the presentation.. ):

Assalammualaikum dan selamat malam..

Abd. Rahman bin Hj Md. Tahir.
27th July 2008; 2:10 AM
Al-Fatihah..

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ.
الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ.
الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ.
مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ.
إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ
اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الْمُسْتَقِيمَ
صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ الْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلاَالضَّآلِّينَ

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..
Ya Allah, tempatkan dia ditempat orang-orang yang beriman..
AMIN..




All I can see is black and white. No colours.
It was unbearable.

I almost lost my breath..

Nini, I love you.

Nini, I'm begging you not to leave us..

:'(

Aku inda tau cana kan buat homework GP yang essay! Aduii~ I'm totally blank right now..

The essays were;
1. Are we likely to become victims of technology?
2. Life today makes it difficult to have lasting friendship. Is it true?
3. Does medicine always benefit the patient?

I'm absolutely out of idea, and that makes me feel.. stress.. When I'm stressed, I'm feeling sleepy. *Yawn.

Worst, it needs to be submitted tomorrow. :s

Okay fighting! I'm out of here.. Assalammualaikum!

Currently listening to; Corrine May - Something About You.

"There's something in your eyes,
Something in your smile,
Something in the way you move me..
You make me want to sing,
Make me want to dance,
Make me want to cry,
I'm falling in love with you."

P/S; Aku mau lagu ani!

Currently, I'm chatting with Juju. Ya Rabbi! Mental ku eh! Okay okay calm down. *Deep breathe in and breath out. I can't believe that there's this guy, who's about to destroy one of my girl's day.

Bad news, Asim said he won't make it to my place later. *Sigh. Today's just not my day..

P/P/S; I'm going to watch Super Junior's Love Letter and X-Man soon! (: Ki Bumiee~

I'm off to my study table. Assalammualaikum!

August is around the corner. Things that scared me;
1. June AS level result will come out.
2. Qualifying Exam.

Okay but one of my GFF's (Sha) birthday is also coming this August. Plus, Ki Bummie's birthday is coming sooooooonn too! So cheer up, me! I still got time to laugh out loud, and maybe next few weeks.. cry out loud? *Sigh. I shouldn't think negatively but it can't be help. ):

Brother Azhar will end his so-called-attachment at our school, and by next next Monday, he'll gone back to UBD again. *Sobsob. So good luck on your report brother and will miss you. ): And by early next year, he'll be a teaching practice teacher. Bah baik prepare. :p

So on Saturday, we got photo taking session for upper sixth student. Will try to make myself looks prettier that day. HA-HA.

Ohs and besok, maybe I'll meet my baby love. *BIG smile.

Okay that was so random.. So let's call it a day. Assalammualaikum. Good night.

P/S; Wake up please, grandpa. ):

I went there with my parents, brother Azhar and also Ariffin, my tangah and her daughter, also with one of my cousins, which I don't want to mention her name in here. We arrived at JPMC at around 7.45 PM. It was my first time going there. Believe me, I never go there.. not even once. He-he. The place was awesome.

I'm not in the mood of writing a long story here.. so here's some pictures.

Finally, I met them. Cousins, it's been 3-4 months since I last hangout with them. Miss you girls. (:

And this is their little brother. Boy you grow fast! He-he. Pandai cakap udah, cool!

At around 9, off we go.. Arrived home safely at 10.00 PM. I didn't get any chance to do any revision or homework since my father fetched me at around 4.30 PM this afternoon. I'm sleepy.. Goodnight. Assalammualaikum.

Just got back from JPMC (Jerudong Park Medical Centre), where my grandfather is admitted. I'm sure is tired right now, but that doesn't matter. The thing that matter now is my grandfather. I'm really sad to see his condition. All those tubes and all. I feel like there's tears in my eyes, especially when I heard my mom said, "The doctor told us that his condition is becoming worst." and, "It's a 50-50."

So now, I pray.. God, please help us.. Tolonglah hambamu yang lemah ini.. Hanya pada-Mu tempat kami memohon.. And grandfather, stay strong please..

Many of our family member were there. Quite happy to see them, it's been almost a year since our last gather. Except this time, in a sorrow situation.

I'm quite mad this afternoon. I waited 2 hours for my father to fetch me at school. Then at 4, I went to Sha's place with her father. But my father got his reason though. He went to JPMC to meet the doctor, and at around 4 fetched me at Sha's place. I just knew the reason, without hearing any explanation. I'm not that mad, I'm just upset.

I really need to concentrate, Biology Paper 5 tomorrow was canceled but Biology Paper 3 and the Australian Chemistry Quiz is still on. Good luck me. Assalammualaikum..

Anyong Hashimnika (which means Hello if you're wondering)! I'm so back and I got fever. Just great, GAHH!

I went to school this morning, and I got a shocking news from Mr. Alexander. He said, "We only got two more weeks before the Qualifying Exam. And after the Qualifying Exam, you'll be having a long holiday. The problem is that, after you finish your holiday.. you will be sitting for your 'A' level Examination. That is on October 10th." And the only thing that I could think of at that time is, "Just great.." GAHH!

I'll be having my Biology Practical Examination on this Wednesday and Thursday. And also, I remembered that I sign up my name for the Canadian Chemistry Quiz.. and it will be taken place on this Thursday. Ter-clash tia with Biology... Just great! GAHH!

Next week, probably on Monday, we(Sha, Juju, Agnaes, Betty and me) got GP presentation to do.. We still need to practice our speeches and check our slides.. Though we will be busy for the Qualifying.. I can't understand why do we have to do this, our Exam is so close now.. Just great.. GAHH!

I end up here. Good luck, me! Get well soon, me! Assalammualaikum..

P/S; Asim.. ): Indeed I need you.
P/P/S; Aku mahu makan bubur ayam yang mama masak! ):
P/P/P/S; Get well soon Nini Laki. He was admitted to the Hospital last Sunday. ):
P/P/P/P/S; Asim, I'm sorry I left your watch at Chemistry Lab tadi.. ):

Saturday afternoon, I went out with Sha as promised. She needed me to accompany her to the Easyway (Tutong), for her bus10 gather. She's afraid that she'd be the only girl to be there, so I'm accompanying her.

After school, I followed Sha home with her parent. Mandi manda, makan makan then bersiap. At around 3, we arrived there.

What we're doing? Doing our GP presentation, downloading songs, chit-chatting and also photo taking. (: Yup I'm having a great time.

Here's our picture;

There at OG Complex, I met Sis Ezan (Kaka Asim) with her husband. Haven't seen her for a long time I guess. And God she looks cute! I approached her and asked about her pregnancy. She told me the baby will born on November. I don't know why, but I called her 'kaka'. I feel kinda awkward. I mean, I called her 'kaka'! Apakan? She said, "Bah bisai-bisai ah," and I replied her by saying, "Okay, kaka bisai-bisai jua ah.." And by that time, I realized that it was the first time I called her 'kaka', face by face. He-he.

We arrived at Sha's home at 5 PM. I'm not feeling well at that time. But Sha got problem so I decided to accompany her.. I don't want her to cry or feel lonely. *Sayang Sha tuh. (x And that makes me to stay over her place for one night..

I'm having such a great late-dinner. Thanks Sha! *Big hugs! Later that night, I watched Korean movie, The Sex Diary (My rate:7/10) *Don't get me wrong, it's not a real sex movie. I'm a good girl kali ah! and also The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (My rate:9/10).

We woke up late that morning. Not that late, at 8 AM catulah. Then doing homework and more chit-chatting.. At 11 AM, we went to Tutong to attend a wedding ceremony. I wore Sha's cool baju kurung. *Nasib muat size! (:

Then off we go to Giant.. Then The Mall.. My fever is getting worst.. :s

At around 5 PM, they send me home. And I found out that Memet's sleeping over my place. Sorry baby I wasn't there last night. She told me like, "Aku liat bunga api, ujan.. pakai payung.." He-he. I kinda miss her and I manage to give her a big hug. (:

P/S; I know I'm bad in English. Please ignore any mistake. I'm lazy to edit it again and again.

I just got a call from my Tangah Hjh Siti (Memet's mother). She's calling from Seria. And she asked me whether I'm going to Tutong tomorrow night, to see the fireworks.

P/S; I don't really want to go.

I said to her that I don't know. And by that time I heard Memet's voice. She screamed, "Aku mahu liat bunga api," repeatedly. *Sigh.

P/P/S; Baby it's not that simple. It will be full with people. And that town is so small, can't you get it? Of course she can't, she's only 4! *Sigh.

I don't know what would happen tomorrow. I'm going to Sha's place after school and accompany her to Tutong, for her bus10 gathering. I don't know when I'll be back home, but for sure.. It's going to be tiring.

P/P/P/S; I really want to stay home tomorrow night!
P/P/P/P/S; That explain how kids can be annoying sometimes.

Let's call it a day. Assalammualaikum!

I woke up early but got nothing much to do. So I watch 'My Best Pal' on my laptop. (: Left with 4 episodes, yippeh! This guy, I'm attracted to him. Ha-ha. So good looking wah, I can't resist eh! (: He-he.

As expected, Asim woke up late. :p But I'm happy that he made it to my place, well not that late. He-he. I masak for him tadi~ I feel awkward eh, but happy. (: He's being so different today. *Cyg, ada papa kah? He-he. Selalunya, when I said, "Cyg, Fizah masak untuk cyg ah. Inda payah bali makanan" and he would reply, "Inda payahtah. Bali saja." But today, without me asking him to let me cook, ia bali barang untuk aku masak. He-he. (: *Wide smile.

Thank you love for spending your time with me today. I miss you more and more now. :'( Wahh, I keep on falling for you eh! I love you endlessly cinta. (:

P/S; I want to watch a movie with you please! Before 'A' level exam.. please? :(

Oh btw, I hope it's not too late to say this.. Congratulation to Bro Barul, for his acceptance in ITB. (:

Will try to do revision later. Right now, I wanted to watch Super Junior E.H.B. on youtube again! (: So goodbye. Have a nice weekend everyone! Assalammualaikum!

Good evening peeps.

I'm damn bored right now. And so, I'm here.. Blogging again. (:

I've just finished watching Super Junior The Exploration of Human Body (E.H.B) at youtube. I don't really finish watching it, I only managed to watch up to episode 5. Will continue watching it tomorrow morning. It was extremely funny and I just can't take it anymore. So I decided to continue tomorrow. More, it's late udah bah. He-he. I miss this cool guy, Kim Ki Bum! Ahh he's such a prince charming. (:

Talking about tomorrow.. I'm not coming to Padang Tutong esok. Asim inda rajin bangun awal. :( It's okay though, he promise to meet me up tomorrow afternoon. *Wide smile. (:

TAKE NOTE;
July 23rd, 2008: Biology Paper 5.
July 24th, 2008: Biology Paper 3.
August 06th, 2008: Chemistry Paper 3.

P/S; GET TO WORK!!

I'm off to bed. *Yawn. Assalammualaikum.

Tadaaa! New skin.. (: Just something simple, malas lah nak tambah-tambah. But I'm satisfied with it. Hooorayy!


I'm just bored with the old one. Maybe because it's too pink. (: He-he.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASRI,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU."

Happy 14th to my dear brother, Asri HAB.
Wishing you a very good luck for your future. May you be bless, with a good health and prosperity. Be a good man, boy. Don't be lazy please. (:

Today evening, we (my parent, brother Azhar and me) went to Tutong. We want to bought a cake and presents for my not-so-little brother. It feels good eh jalan with my parent. Batah udah inda jalan sama durang.. It's been 2 months udah kali.. Manakan, aku selalu jalan with my brother Azhar and Asim saja. XD

Here's today's pictures;

Cikgu Azhar HAB. He-he. Taken this morning. Brother, give me back my seat in the car please! :p

P/S; Good luck for Wednesday's and Saturday's supplement Exam brother! No U please!
P/P/S; Get well soon babylove. :(

Good evening ladies/gents.

I'm having chest pain, stomachache and also headache. The reason for me to have such a pain on my chest is because.. I was trying to do some push up. But it turns out to be zero push up, plus a pain on my chest. Hm.. I'm so lazy to do anything tonight. I wasted my whole day, with nothing at all. GAHH! But I did some research for my GP Presentation, searching for more info and also pictures. After all, I didn't really wasted my time.. right?

What I've been doing today.. is that.. erm.. yeah! My sayang Memet came over! She's early today, and dear, she went back home early too. I somehow think that children can be so annoying, but they can be cute too. Few years back, I dislike kids. And I hate having smaller brothers. Now, I didn't really care. It's like, take it if you want it and ignore it if you didn't want it. Apakann? Anyway, I love my 'little' brothers and also Memet! (x


Another thing that I did is that.. yes, jogging. Unfortunately, my legs hurts a little bit that it's hard for me to jog.. But I didn't give up.. (x Here's some photos of the the day, including yesterdays pictures.
Some other things that I did was watching TV, playing games (The Sims, Oh gosh I'm really getting addicted to it), playing with my cats, surfing through the web, blah blah blah. I'm feeling really disappointed with myself when I failed controlling myself doing un-useful stuff.. like, playing games ah. :(

I really really need myself to get started with revision and get busy with books. Why am I being so lazy? Bordoh aku neh! GAHH! Convince me love!

I'm off to bed. Sleepehh udah. Good night peeps. Assalammualaikum!

What's wrong with DST? I can't contact Asim since this early morning. GAHH! Stoopid juga eh!

Dear love,
I am so sorry. I know I make you down. I know the truth but still I complained. I'm sorry.

Yesterday I asked him, "Cyg, kenapa kita inda macam dulu?". I asked him without any doubt, and now that I think about it.. I regretted for asking him such question.

Time flies so fast, but my heart to you never changed. I feel like I've been hurting you over and over again. I'm sorry for that. Deep in my heart, I'm hurting inside too.

I kept on questioning him, like.. "Dulu kita inda pernah kelayi,", "Dulu cyg inda pemarah," and "Dulu kita selalu jalan-jalan." I felt that questions stupid! I know the answer but why am I still asking him all these?

There's so much changes happening in us. People were talking bad things about us. So mom and dad.. I apologize for that. Because of that silly news, we rarely meet each other. I so hate the-person-who-I-wanted-her-name-to-be-mention-here-so-much-but-I-just-can't. She made us this way.

And I know he's thinking too much about his financial problem.. Sigh.. I shouldn't have complain.. Everything changes.. and I don't like how it sound, and how it works. When everything settle up, love, can we went back again through eternity?

I'm so sorry love. I really wish, that everything is back to normal again. To how it should be, because I found out that.. he's the one.

I miss the way you look at me, I miss the way you laugh, I miss how you turns to be silly, I miss the way you make me me laugh so much, I miss the way you treated me nicely, I miss the time where when I cried, you wipe my tears away, I miss the way you make me feel confident with myself.. and most of all, I miss your love. I miss the real you love.

I'm sorry again, I shouldn't asked for more..

In the memory of our lost two kittens. x'(

GOOD MORNING WORRRRLLLDDD!

Happy Thursday. Have a real nice day. Starting tomorrow..

Friday; Holiday.
Saturday; School.
Sunday; Holiday.
Monday; School.
Tuesday; Special Holiday (HMS's birthday).
Wednesday; School.
Thursday; Declared as holiday (HMS's birthday celebration in Tutong).
Friday; Holiday.
Saturday; School.
Sunday; Holiday.

And back to normal. Nice eh?

TAKE NOTE!
July 9th: Betty's (L) birthday.
August 2nd: Sha's (L) birthday.
August 14th, 2008: Qualifying Exam.
Somewhere in October: 'A' Level Examination.

P/S; Sis Lily was right. I shouldn't complained. So I guess I better start working.

Happy weekend! Assalammualaikum.

Hello my beautiful/handsome readers. Apakannnn. Ha-ha.

First of all, i would like to say Happy birthday to one of my besties, Betty the kambang girl. (x He-he. And I remembered she said, well something like this, "Umurku 19 tahun udah, jangan ingau. It's just a number." He-he.

Sha, Juju, Agnaes and including me, planned for a surprise birthday small-party for her. Alhamdulillah, everything berjalan dengan lancar, with the help from Kaka Betty, Dorothy and also cousin Juju, Saiful ohh and not to forget, 'ehem' Juju. (x

The location? Her favourite place, Jolibee Hua Ho Tutong! Payah kami berlakon pagi atu weh. Apani, kan make sure everything went okay sesama sendiri without diketahui oleh Betty. And guess what? Ia langsung inda realize. Wah we can be pelakon eh!

I went back home at 6.00 PM. Overall, fun fun fun! Thanks for the great day girls. Hope to do this again, even when we finish our 'A' levels.

That's it. Assalammualaikum, I'm off.