I'm mad. But I don't want to talk about it. I' wishing for a better tomorrow.

Talking about tomorrow, I'm participating in the Biology Competition which will be held tomorrow afternoon at 1.00 - 2.00 PM. That means, no afternoon class. Well actually, Teacher Laly planned to give us a sort of Examination Practical tomorrow afternoon, just for a practice to be precise. I guess it needs be cancel.

After school, I'll be with the girls. (: Probably, I'll not be home until night. I don't feel like going home actually, to much noise and it's driving me crazy.

I better off peeps. May God keep on blessing us, Amin. Assalammualaikum.

Good evening pupil. Just a simple post..

I remember there was this conversation.. well something like this;

My friends were talking about the Japanese Scholarship.
Me; Qim, kau inda apply Japanese Scholarship atu?
Haqim; Inda, malas-ku. Kau?
Me; Inda. *Smile.
Haqim; Kenapa? Pasal boy mu inda suruh?
Me; *Smile.

Well, I don't know. Me and Asim has had this conversation before, but to tell you the truth.. I don't think I'll get any scholarship. So love, I won't leave. I don't think I have the chance to leave. Fullstop. And good night. Assalammualaikum.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLENX, SHAE! Shae capie, inda sekulah tadi! Kan belanja tah udah ne! HE-HE. Anyway, enjoy you day darl. Wishing you all the best for the upcoming Exam. Happy eighteen. (:

Hello peeps!

Ecah and Ecum wanted me to make 'fan signs' for them. You must be asking, "Apakan fan sign ani?" HA-HA. Aku pun inda tau! What I understand is that in a picture, there must be my picture and their name. Hm.. I hope this will be okay. Btw, I miss both of you darlings!

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Yesterday --

Lawaaaaa and comel beg anii! Shaaaa, I want it bah!

Us. Tu Si Afndy! Credit to Sha (L).

Today --

Arghhh busannn ku hari ani!

My parents will not be here for dinner. They have to attend somewhere. *Giggle. Anyhoooo, good luck parents!

And my boyfriend can't be here with me today afternoon, he got football match at SMSO. I want to go there and watch him. But he did not allowed me to do so. Katanya, "Asim inda teror main," As for me, I don't care how bad he might be. I want to support him bah. Oh well, biar tia. *Sigh. Good luck love. (:

Oh yesterday concert. Betty salah teka! HA-HA. Rina keluar toh~ Aww Khai and Rosma kahwin udah~ (: CONGRATES!

Memet came over. She's okay at first, and all of sudden she's mad at me. Uh. And I was like, whatever. I can't stand kids. :s Luckily, she's okay towards the end. Here are some of her shots.

CONGRATULATION TO NEERAAAH! Yeeehaaaahh! She passed her driving test last Saturday. Take care darl.
WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF BLOGGING, COUSIN ARBEE! HE-HE.
Though I said I don't want to talk to him, but actually I wanted to. I miss the 'old' us.

Lelaki ituuuu.. Aku rinduuuu! *Pointing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTYYYYYY A.K.A RAMIZAH! =D Batah inda jumpa ei, how are you doing? Good luck for everything, enjoy your birthday! God bless you, Amin.

Do you spot there's something wrong with my eye? *Sigh. It become bigger every morning when I woke up. :s



Beh, I miss you. :( I'm glad he's here for you.

ECAHHH! ECUMMM! I miss kamu dua!
I don't want to talk to you, still.

Currently playing; Keyshia Cole - I remember.

" There was nowhere else to go,
Nobody else to turn to...
For the rest of my life,
I promised myself I will love me first genuinely... "

I miss her.

Song of the day; Glenn Medeiros - Nothing gonna change my love for you.

Good evening.

*Sigh. There's something up here on/in my eyes. It bothering me, and of course sakitttt kali ahh! :s I woke up this morning and I can't just ignore it. When I touched it, I was like ouchhhhhhhh. And during the afternoon, the pain become severe. Payah kan kelip-kelip mata ah. :s

Today is Agnaes' birthday. We planned something for her today.. we bought her 2 cake. Not 'we' actually, Juju's the one who spend her money on the cake. Yeay! She's surprised! We sang her a birthday song, at the canteen! But surprisingly, ada lagi orang lain birthday tuh~ Basar kek durang! Sorry Agnaes, your cake is smaller, but it's okay kali ehhh? =D

No afternoon class today, unfortunately we have to went back home a bit late. At 1.00 PM, father fetched me. I'm sorry for being troublesome father. :s Balik-balik ia aga aku ah. We need to submit the essay, right in time at 1.00 PM. My essay was messy, my handwriting.. urgh! Cakar ayam! HA-HA. At that moment, all I think about is 'that person'.. who do not tell me the truth. If you hate me that much, I won't bother to talk to you anymore.

It's one of the worst afternoon ever. I'm tired and need to sleep. But it's hot, there's some problem with my brother's room's air-conditioner. Moreover, it's noisyyyyyy! I suddenly burst my tears, and I don't know why. I only get to sleep once I move to Brother Juan's room. Oh thank goodness!

Let call it a day. Good night and Assalammualaikum.

Beh, I just want you to look me in my eyes and say out that words. I want to cry so much in your arms. Will you?

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People, am I being so troublesome? *Sigh!

Just a short post;

School was tiring. The very first morning, me and the girls (Sha and Juju) have to clean our Chemistry Lab. I was wondering.. Did the juniors clean this lab? I don't think so.. Oh my, how irresponsible.. :s Teacher gave us more works.. Since we're short of time, we need to rush to another topic. Urgh it's so complicated. It's hard for me to understand the topic we're doing right now, and next Monday we will be starting on new topic. Oh gosh, it's awful. :s And Monday, I hate! It's the start of such a miserable day (like Sha always said that to me, and now it's stuck in me).

Next we're having Mathematics class. Finally we got to see Miss Lim, but she's not teaching us today. It's been a week since I last saw her. Me and my friends thought that she's married. But no, she's having a kursus. Btw teacher, you know what.. I spent 6 hours on 2 Past Year Papers! I'm slow, damn! :s Today class was on Statistic. More exercise.. :s And new topic next Wednesday, Yihuu!

After that, GP. No teacher. Hooray! HA-HA.

My last class for today was Biology. Again, homework. We learned about neurons. You know, the brain.. How it works and what's in it. I'm still a bit blury on this topic, will try to catch up tomorrow.

Lastly, PS at L4 class. It's hot in there! :( Juju told me that I looked lazy today, and it's written on my face. HA-HA, You're right hun. I'm not in the mood of studying today. I feel like talking to them all day long. I'm tired, I'm sleepy, I'm lazy. :D

My afternoon = Television + Junk foods + Sleep. :D

Today night, ah I don't feel like watching concert AF. Looking forward for tomorrow night (or not) -- Anugerah Planet Musik!


Goodnight peeps. Have a nice weekend tomorrow yea darl.










HOMEWORK
Biology - Notes on Neurons. Revision on Hormones and Kidney.
Chemistry - 3 sets of Past Year Paper. A simple calculation on Standard Electrode Potential.
Mathematics - Statistic further exercise on Probability.
GP - None!

How many black dots can you see?



Find all the five wolfs.



Which way does the window face? Right? Left?



Tough colour test.



How many legs can you see?



Stare at the black dot (center), after a while the grey haze will begin to shrink.



What do you see? A duck or a bunny?



A musician or a girl?

I waited for the whole day. No sign of him going online. I miss you my boy. Urgh. Today is totally a lazy day for me. I don't even touch my books nor doing my homework. Yeah, I'm quite disappointed with myself. I don't know what to do with it. Lately, I didn't even take care of my body. I didn't get enough sleep, I ate lesser food, I didn't make much movements.. and I began to hate this girl.. Afizah. :( My answer would be yes if you'd ask me whether I want to start a new life. It's just that, something is laking deep down inside me. I can't figure it out. :/ I wish I have a restart button for life. I wish I wish. Won't come true though!

Good night!

Asim-ku, get well. Beh ei, jangan sakit-sakit wa, Fizah takut. :( I love you Beh. (L) Like always. (: Love, please do take care. Drive bisai-bisai, kaki sakit toh! Aku mahu kamuu! :(

Brother Barul, Congratulation! Good luck for you interview! Kalau dapat masuk ITB belanja adek ah! :D

Playing; Firdaus - Menangislah Di Bahuku.

Tuesday. April 15th, 2008.

I was with him. (: We went to Tutong. I'm sorry I'm lazy to type right now. Let picture describe it, ayt?

Wednesday. April 16th 2008.

I wondered how long would they take to get my room done. My room was badly effected. Ah it's my wish anyway. Please finish it soon, I need room to study.

Hello world. I've been busy with school works. I don't think I'll be updating for the next few days/weeks.. But please keep on visiting. (: And I'm sorry for that. Before saying goodnight, here's some update.

Abang AZHAR-ku, good luck for your End Of Semester Examination. 3 weeks in the row brother, so prepare for it. No supplement please! Belanja ice cream pleaseeeee. :D

ADONIS, my brother. Pneumonia. I wish I never knew such words. It's killing my brain to keep on thinking about you brother. Oh please get well. Please. :( I can't watch you falling sick, you better get well soon brother. Please stop this tears from keep on falling. Seriously, please. :(

ASIM, I'm sorry. For those so-called stupid mistake. I admit that was entirely my fault. I'm sorry that I keep on promising not to hurt you, but still I did that. Sorry for not being perfect for you. I'm sorry and I'm sorry and sorry. You deserve better and I promise will be better baby. (: I can't stop loving you. (: Forevermore, I'm yours.

The pupil from the scholarship department came to our school today morning. First, they do their talking to form 5 students and after the break, it's our turn. It's quite interesting to know there were tons of scholarship given to Brunei students. If I can have this opportunity, I will never let it go. I'll work hard for it. And make you proud parents.

Unfortunately, for me to take Medical course.. I'll need 3 straight A's. I gave up on that. Hey seriously, I always get an E or D for my Chemistry! For God's sake, I'm doom! I cannot do it. Well after all, it's good to have a University up here in Brunei. And for me to enter them safely, I need 3 straight C's or better. The future scared me. :s

April 9th, 2008.

I went to Juju's place after school. My dad can't fetch me early, he fetch me at 4.30 PM. I arrived home at 5. I'm tired and I need some sleep. My homework stopped me from doing so... So I'm doing my homework and suddenly my cousin texted me. He need some help for his Mathematics homework. He was here at 9 PM and went back home at 10.30 something like that. I want to laid back and sleep well. But my mind get stuck and my eyes were wet. I feel like dying. I tried reaching Adonis but no answer. I'm there.. all alone.

Btw, as soon as I arrived home.. I'm astonished to see this..

My bathroom~ YEAYY!

Nothing much.. School was okay. Except the part that I burst my tears in public. That's humiliating. :s Thank goodness Juju and Sha was there. Thank you love. And afternoon class.. it was HOT! I can feel my fats were burning. HA-HA. I need to lose my weight. I gained to much. Noooooooo moreeee fooooooddddddd bolehhhhhhhhhhh?

Arrived home at 2.30 PM, fetched by Babah kuuu. (L) Some changes to my bathroom~ :D :D

THANKS SHA AND JUJU FOR BEING THERE. It's just that, I'm sooooooooo out of my mind. I need motivation, not advise.
Akuuuu mauuuu balikkkk rumahhhhh waaaaaa! :(

I woke up quite late, at 10 AM because I slept quite late too. I watched Big Daddy on HBO last night, and it ended at around 1.00 AM and it was 2 when I entered my room. Adam Sandler was just awesome!

My baby came over! (: It was at noon when she came and she went home at 4.00 PM. As usual, she's so naughty!

I let her see my dad's baby chicken. (: I wanted to have one!

April 7th 2008.

Monday doesn't sound good at all. Let's make it as Tuesday. :D

The very morning at school we have an assembly for the Sixth Form in the Hall. Seriously, I'm sleepy. I think they talk crap, same old style and same old stuff. And we were to be blame. Doesn't seem so right at all. :s

Mr. Raj gave up on us. Well not actually. Our GP class was taken over by Cg. Junainah. Today was suppose to be the first day for her to enter the class. However, because of the assembly which stopped at 9.10 AM, there is not enough time to do any learning. Or in other words, teacher didn't enter our class. :D

As usual, Chemistry practical in the afternoon. I want moreeeeeee practice for my Juneeeee!

Lets end it. Assalammualaikum!

The King and the Clown. It would be 7/10.



And Lee Jun Ki is veryyyyy hottt!


Meet The Spartan! HA-HA. I laughed a lot while watching it! 8/10.



Cintaku Forever. 8/10. Again, I accidentally burst my tears.

Opps. It's been three days since my last post. Let get started~

April 3rd, 2008.

It was Thursday. School was tiring, even though I didn't have any lesson before the break, due to the ceremony sempena Sambutan Maulidul Rasul di sekolah. Too bad we're involved. And after break, Mr. Raj didn't enter the class. So the conclusion is that, we only study during the last 2 periods that is Biology.

I got my Biology class that afternoon and it ended at 2.00 PM. Asim promised to fetch me that afternoon. And guess what, he was late. 1 hour late. *Asimmmm jahaaaat. :(* During that 1 hour of waiting, I was so mad. You'll never see any smile on my face. And 1 hour, I got tired thinking of it. I'm tired and I want to laugh so much. He was there at 3, saying sorry and blah blah.. I felt like laughing. He haven't even showering yet! :D

And we stop over at his place. Woah batah udah ku inda ke sana. Si Asimm mandi, aww seksiiii (L). HA-HA. Have a little talk with Nurul, kejap saja. His parent and other sisters wasn't home. It was around 4 when we're off to gerai Danau. Laparrrrrr~ Si Asim kana denda belanja Kolo Mee. *Gulp* Sedapppp~ (L)

Home at 5 and makan sama-sama. Romantic eh! :D And he went home at 5.30 PM. I miss you love.

(gambar arah hp Asim, lupaku ambil. :s)

April 4th, 2008.

Friday, I was home all day long. A day off and no homework! Great. I have more time to study for my AS, unfortunately, I lost my study mood. Too bad. HE-HE.

April 5th, 2008.