I am rather speechless. I'll have to put some more effort to end this post nicely.
I have this mixture of feeling going on right now. I wanna cry so hard. I wanna sulk, but without reason? I wanna laugh exuberantly.
*Sigh. I feel like I need to puke. My head is like it's spinning, my stomach is growling, my legs hurts so much and my body is too tired. It's like I'm restless. The answer to this is probably because I'm not having enough sleep. Maybe.
Today I've been stalking
Mirah. HAHA. Observing
ba. I spent so much time with her today, talking, playing, cuddling, tickling,
ah baby stuffs. Wait, I'm not babysitting her, I just spend my
boringtime with her.
(pictures later, too tired to edit them.)
At this moment, I realize that I wasn't grateful enough for what I have. I always asked for more, and it does hurt some people. I'm sorry, I wasn't aware of it before, but I am right now. From now on, I'll try to be independent. Mumy and Dady, I really hope to get a good A level results, and believe me I've tried the best-est I could. I wish not to let you down, being menyusahkan and all. But who am I, I'm not perfect and I make mistakes. The thing is, I apologize, and will try not to put a heavy burden on you anymore, whoever you are.
This post is really different than what I thought. I mean, referring to my previous post, I said that I'll complain more later on, but look at what on earth I'm talking about. HAHA. (I don't really laugh, in case you're wondering.)
I want to start a new beginning. But how? And why do I need one? Crap!
Shoooooooooot! I missed last night Heroes Episode. Help, anyone?
ARGH I AM GETTING CRAZY AND MAD! And nobody's there, for me. How pathetic!
P/S; I wish to have a personal English tutor. So pardon me for any English mistakes. Thank you.
Afizah H Abu Bakar. I love what I am. I just want to be who I want to be. I smile, I laugh and I cry. I love my family, my friends and my boyfriend. They are my life.