"Fizah mau ikut Asim jalan," and that was the moment that brings back my smile. I love you baby. Always will.

I'm back with a big smile on my face, but not here in my deep dried heart. People told me to get over it, and I do. But never will I to forget about it.

My family still haven't stop talking about Mulah Nini. He was admitted to the hospital last week, and a week later.. he's not here anymore. My parent didn't tell us the truth, which is quite disappointing. I really wanted to be there until his last breathe, at least asking for his forgiveness. Instead, I was left at home. I'm not blaming anyone, but I do blame myself.. thinking how a bad cucu I might be.

There at school, my friends really made my day. Something told me that, I need a shoulder to lean on.. All I can think about at that time is Sha. And I gave her a hug, a warm hug.. which makes me feel okay again. Thank you darling. (:

I feel like crying but I won't. My cousin told be that, inda baik menangisi pemergiaan orang yang sudah tiada. Kana seksa di kubur tu orang yang meninggalkan kamu tu.. And so I must I stop.. But of course, sekali sekala terkanang.. It can't be help.. )':

For a while, I can't understand why they are laughing. And now that I am laughing too, my answer would be.. It's just unbearable that I just started to smile again.. Because deep inside me, I know he would not like it.

And I'm happy that Nini bini is living with us.. Alhamdulillah..

And also, Alhamdulillah, majlis yang berlangung tiga hari berturut-turut berjalan dengan lancar..

I must go.. The time is killing me! Assalammualaikum..